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Why are you here?

2011-12-29T18:17:00.000-08:00

My most recent musical sketchbook, "Why are you here?", is now available for free online. May there be beauty within it.

Note: Myshkin is now my permanent performing name, providing consistency throughout my various collaborations (as opposed to finding a new name every time). This album features my friend, Angela, on the cello.

Restoration

2011-12-25T09:59:00.000-08:00

Grace is the harbinger of restoration. Through it true peace can arise. And arise it does: a star wrapped in life for those who wish to receive it.

Merry Christmas.

A Profound Thought on Advent and Christmas

2011-12-19T11:25:00.000-08:00

A recent article by Jessica Hughes, "Black Friday Blues", on the ever thoughtful Wondering Fair blog, has caused me to pause and reconsider how I approach Advent and Christmas, and how I may ultimately wish to do so in the future. I recommend taking a minute to read. Merry Christmas.

Some Thoughts on Parenthood

2011-12-02T10:33:00.001-08:00

The following is a response to a Wondering Fair post titled "If Only She Would Have . . .", which is a fresh and insightful perspective on parenthood.

It could be argued, perhaps, that social attention is directed more toward mothers during a child's pre- and early-adolescent years, but I perceive that there is an often discrete shift that begins to occur during the child’s mid- and post-adolescence years. I know this to be particularly true for young men, but it seems to be often consistent with women as well: that many personal demons struggled through as an adult—being that the son or daughter is at a more mature cognitive and spiritual place to identify them than during younger years—are somehow rooted in the relationship with the father figure. It is not uncommon—some would suggest that it is even natural and healthy with regard to development—that a son or daughter shifts a larger portion of his or her relational energy previously directed more toward the mother figure toward the father figure in the late teen period. Again, this is particularly true and important for young men, who upon entering manhood are looking for a guide(s) to help them through that initiation. But it does seem even true for many young women who may be, for example, searching for a model of manhood by which to measure their male peers as potential husbands and future fathers. This is a critical period for young people, and yet it seems to be poorly handled or often neglected by father figures. Further examples: the common insecurities of both young men and women, manifested through seeking love and affirmation through pre-marital sex or even homosexuality. It is certainly more complicated than that, but the point is that it seems that both men and women have an identifiable responsibility in raising their children. Society does seem to recognize this to some degree. In the art world, broken father relationships seem to be at the epicenter of story arches or character development more than broken mother relationships.

The father’s responsibility does not seem to be identified, encouraged, and challenged enough, especially by the Church; but I have seen that consciousness shifting. Mothers do often seem to receive much of the weight of responsibility during a majority of a child’s life, to which if the father is less present in that responsibility there may be a detrimental trend established for the future when the maturing child needs him the most—at which point, it may be added, for example, that a mother figure may have difficulty in allowing and trusting the father figure to take on a greater role if he manages to rise out of that passivity. Fathers have an invaluable role in raising their child. If they are not receiving enough attention in sociological and psychological assessments of parenting, which I am not sure is exactly the case, then they certainly need to. Regardless, thank you, mothers, for your tireless efforts.

Stay Young, Go Dancing

2011-10-19T09:15:00.000-07:00

Could not life be this simple?

Death Cab for Cutie "Stay Young, Go Dancing" (Codes and Keys)

Sentimentalism

2011-09-22T12:45:00.000-07:00

In response to the question, "Are you a sentimentalist?" I recently replied more or less with, "As much as reason allows. . . ."

An interesting response considering that reason and objective thought stand in marked contrast to the idealistic feeling that characterizes sentiments.

There seems to be a general antipathy toward such layering, especially in art. To be sure, there is a line beyond which something can become "sappy." Thus, not long ago--in consideration of my art, for example--I thought: To do away with all sentiment. It was almost a call to action, a pledge. But then I paused. Away with all sentiment? Away with ideals? Away with feeling? To become an elightened thinker to the utmost: a true Western man--a modern man? . . .

No. To do away with all sentiment is to do away with God, maybe even goodness. He is not governed by reason--if reason can aid us in facing Him at all. Absolute Truth. Love. Can reason define them fully, even accurately? . . .

No. Faith is needed: a trust in the mystery. Is that not holding on to a kind of sentimentalism? Is idealistic feeling not one way to commune with the Heavens? . . .

It seems that I shall remain to some degree a sentimentalist. Yet returning to my original response, is the degree to which I do so measured or governed, in fact, by my reason? Or is my reason, rather, held within the hands of incalculable sentiments? . . .

Bon Iver - "Holocene"

2011-09-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

Tranquil.

One Challenge

2011-08-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

The following is an introductory film clip highlighting the vision of One Challenge (OC) International, the mission agency that I have grown up in--as my parents have been missionaries in Europe for fourteen years, preluded by twelve years working at the US Mobilization Center (USMC) in Colorado Springs, CO--and the mission that I have worked in (at the USMC) and fostered lifelong friendships amidst throughout the last four years. It is a Spirit-led mission, organic as it strives faithfully to engage the nations for the Kingdom of YHWH. But it is also family.

Soli Deo Gloria.

from OC International

Finishing the Race

2011-08-04T20:59:00.000-07:00

For those who do not know, I am the new head coach for Falcon High School's co-ed cross country team. It has been a somewhat stressful journey as I only found out a little more than a month ago that the previous head coach was leaving. I had been planning to return as the assistant coach. Furthermore, the athletic director and his secretary from last year have also left, replaced by an over-extended secretary and an interim AD. Fortunately, both are very productive. Fortunately, albeit slowly, it seems that the details are coming together. I try not to worry about it, to offer it all to YHWH, but still the enemy manages to prey upon my most fearful and irrational thoughts—usually at night as I hope to rest.

Tomorrow (Friday, August 5) is our first team meeting. Monday, August 8, begins a week of optional practice. Monday, August 15, begins official practice. Our first meet is August 27, which is a home meet. Fortunately it is a scrimmage; therefore bearing with it slightly less responsibilities than our Falcon Invitational, which will hopefully be on Saturday, October 8 (our meet schedule has not yet been finalized, a predominant source of concern). The State Meet is October 30.

Falcon High School's men's varsity team approaching the line at the 2010 Regional Meet.

Please pray for me as I proceed to do my best as the head coach with only one season's assistant coaching in my arsenal of experience. I am not concerned so much with the actual coaching aspects, but more with all the administrative facets. I am thankful for the support of last year’s volunteer coach, who is now the assistant coach. Additionally, our new volunteer coach knows all the incoming freshmen, already holding good rapport with them I believe. I have also talked with a number of the athletes already. Their enthusiasm has been the most encouraging aspect of this preparatory process. That is why I am coaching. Not for the school, but for the athletes: to continue the relationships begun last fall.

But please pray. Pray that all the details come together in a timely manner, especially regarding the meet schedule and home meets. Pray that I find holistic rest, especially at night. Pray that I coach well, that lives are transformed.

Pray that I finish this race well.

Soli Deo Gloria.

(to be continued . . .)

Francis Chan: Another Refreshing Perspective on the Conversation about Hell

2011-06-07T10:35:00.000-07:00

Pastor Rob Bell's recent book Love Wins resulted in mounds of controversy, particularly within the American "Reformed" domain. Having recently read the book, but without commenting on it directly at this time, I will write that I recommend it to anyone seeking to develop--to allow to grow--their relationships with the Word: YHWH. It is a work best received by those who value the journey as much as the destination.

Somewhat in response to the controversy, but also as a result of his own spiritual journey, Pastor Francis Chan has written a book on the subject himself, curiously titled Erasing Hell. For a profoundly humbling interview introducing the subject, I recommend watching the following clip. For further insight into the upcoming book (set to be released in July) and some of Chan's thoughts, refer to an interview by Relevant Magazine.

Followers of YHWH are called to work out their faith with fear and trembling. Work implies some kind of progress or growth. Growth suggests an organic quality: movement, adaptation, and sometimes even structural change. It is not dormant. It is not in essence stationary. The Word itself claims to be living, breathing, its Spirit moving in mysterious ways. Though certainly more vulnerable than a plastic potted plant--a decoration that really only provides the semblance of beauty and life, but whose color slowly fades and gathers dust in the neglect that its self-sustaining existence sells--a real living plant offers a rich gift for almost ever sensation: living frangrance, gratifying touch, fresh air, fragile yet vibrant beauty, a symbiosis or general equilibrium with creation. A plastic plant is created then let to sit in its place until it is no longer desirable or necessary. A rooted plant requires some form of care. It cannot be ignored. It must be nurtured. For it to survive it requires an active relationship: with water and creation, sometimes even with human beings--at least in the form of humanity not needlessly destroying it in the confidence that it is unnecessary or can be replicated with greater customized precision. The ultimate questions of why this is so is somewhat a mystery. But it is a beautiful mystery. It is a beautiful question. Yet for the question's truth to be given and received--the interchange of which is the essence of a relationship?--does it necessitate an immediate understanding?

Need it be called a tree or flower to stir something within us?

Need it be called anything to be true?

STAND: winter lingers

2011-05-24T15:46:00.000-07:00

I hope that you are all warming from winter's chill, or keeping safe from the wind and water daemons raging throughout the world. Reading the news, I find cause to actually be grateful for mere mild temperature fluctuation--as opposed to earthquakes, floods, tornadoes, or worse: human destruction. It is certainly a time to lift up faith before oneself, draw forth the Holy Spirit, and pray with unashamed conviction. It is a time to remember what YHWH has done, to remember that He can engage our lives in a very real way--like the fury of flame that descended from the sky to consume Elijah's flooded offering set against the prophets of Baal on Mount Carmel (see I Kings).

If only it was that easy. Perhaps it is. Yet I struggle to comprehend it at times. I am humbled by grace. I am thankful for patience. Usually it is in the moments between--the spaces where fresh thought breaks through the levees that each day's routine builds around my mind or spirit--that I hear God's voice the clearest. It is difficult to describe those moments, or the messages that He offers. I believe that melody or imagery and metaphor is my clearest expression of that perception. It is more than that. Mostly, I try to free my art to speak for itself—like a blurred glass window through which different views are emphasized depending on the angle or perspective of the onlooker. It is a challenging journey at times, misunderstood, but it is also so rewarding.

Thank you for your prayers. Thank you to those who have been praying for my knee. I believe that it is healing. I am beginning to be able to run farther and with less apprehension of a relapse. I anticipate being able to really start training for this year’s Pike’s Peak Ascent in August. I anticipate assistant coaching high school cross country for a second season this fall. Currently, I split my workweek between construction and assisting the Personnel Department at the One Challenge (OC) US Mobilization Center in Colorado Springs, CO. I am also still writing when I can. While I have not had any real interest from literary agents yet, I will not give up. I have completed two-thirds of my second novel, a smaller companion piece to the former. It may be, or I hope that it will be, a better means to entering the professional writing world. Furthermore, I continue to compose and play music actively. Right now I am developing a set with a cellist, which already sounds beautiful after two rehearsals. Reflecting back on my musical journey, I am thankful for the time that my friends Elliott Irby and Tyler Griffith spent creating the musical sketchbook, “There was Music” (www.noisetrade.com/redwood) together—Elliott is currently serving as a missionary in Cyrpus, while Tyler is learning Spanish in Guatemala in preparation for missionary work in Mexico. I am also thankful for the few months to perform and record with my friend, Regina Davis. Before she returned to her professional singing base in Holland, we managed to create our own musical sketchbook, “Between Meadow and Sky” (www.noisetrade.com/alaudidae). Both albums have preserved important memories, not only of important people, but of some of those aforementioned spaces in between. I am thankful to also be still serving with a worship team a few times a month, playing either djembe (mostly this), electric bass, or acoustic guitar. Music has become a very important part of my life. For me, it is a window of my deepest self to God; whereas, with writing I can dialogue with who He is, what He has done, and what He may do. More and more I realize that I am an artist above all else. It is a journey demanding endurance and discipline, full of uncertainty, but in it I find peace. In it I find community. In it I find Truth. Soli Deo Gloria.
Thank you for sharing some of that journey with me. May God bless you and keep you. May His face shine down upon you, and give you peace. Now and forevermore. Amen.

Between Meadow and Sky

2011-05-03T14:32:00.000-07:00

Alaudidae, a progressive fusion duo comprised of Redwood musician, Joshua Grubb, and professional singer, Regina Davis, have put together a musical sketchbook of original music developed during their brief time together earlier this year. Though more a collection of musical ideas, their album, "Between Meadow and Sky", offers a diverse sampling of beautiful melody and stirring poetry. So please support them by going to www.noisetrade.com/alaudidae and downloading their 8-song album for FREE.

For those familliar with Redwood's music, the album includes an older version of "Miles and Ocean Apart" featuring the mandolin, as well as newer forms of "Lay Down," "Ainulindale," and "The Triune Dance of the Forest Lord, Part I." Alaudidae really appreciates your support and feedback. Please share the music with all.

Furthermore, it is not too late to download Redwood's recent musical sketchbook, "There was Music", which offers a similiar progressive fusion sound enhanced by the skilled fiddle playing of Tyler Griffith and musical/engineering creativity of Elliott Irby. Go to www.noisetrade.com/redwood for their FREE 15-song album.

True Grit

2011-04-18T13:52:00.000-07:00

Jeremy Kidwell, one of the writers for Wondering Fair, wrote an interesting blog titled "Stanley Fish and the Emptiness of Generic Grace", which compares the tone and message of the recent Coen Brother's film, True Grit (2010), with that of its predecessor directed by Henry Hathaway (1969)--and even the original book itself. As with many Coen Brother films, True Grit suggests a kind of worldview or journey that comments on or seeks to make sense of why either good or evil happens to those deemed good or evil. It can be a difficult discussion, but one that I believe is fundamentally important for each person to contemplate as it will have significant influence on his or her perspective on life.

For some initial thoughts on the subject, I recommend reading the aforementioned blog post by Kidwell.

Integrity with Words

2011-03-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

Too often words are not used with enough care and consideration. The Gospel of John begins, "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God" (NIV). This theme continues throughout the Gospel of John as Jesus proclaims that he is that very word of God. Words imply a message: an outpouring the truth or reality within the speaker. While some may acknokwledge the immense power of words, many do not seem to practice that belief. On the subject of the lyrics or words sung in worship music in today's evangelical churches, Glen Packiam offers some challenging thoughts: "Do the Words We Use in Worship and Prayer Really Matter?". May we never cease considering the messages we profess, being mindful of the nourishment they draw from within our beliefs.

Love Wins: A Controversal Idea

2011-03-03T12:12:00.000-08:00

Recently, there has been a curiuos amount of uproar regarding Rob Bell's book, Love Wins: A Book About Heaven, Hell, and the Fate of Every Person Who Ever Lived. Now, I am fairly familiar with Bell's writing and views. His refreshingly insightful and, I believe, Spirit-inspired teachings should not be so rashly disregarded without any consideration. Sometimes it seems that any re-examining of Scripture without the preconceived notions of certain denominational traditions really incites certain people or groups to anger or even hatred. Did not Jesus do the same thing in his time: re-examining the Truth of Scripture against the notions of his day, much to the chagrin of the Temple leadership? To place judgment on a fellow Believer without really knowing his views, such as through a reading of his books (e.g. Velvet Elvis, Sex God) or listening to his sermons or discussions (e.g. "Everything is Spiritual", "The Gods Aren't Angry", the NOOMA Series) is simply irresponsible and foolish--perhaps even unChrist-like. When addressing something different, many Believers seem quick to judge the source with an "outsider" term (e.g. Universalist, Open Theist, Heathen), but different does not automatically mean wrong. It is disappointing that many Believers do not keep more open minds, as if everything has already been answered and neatly packaged within their doctrines or traditions. Where is the courage and grace to address difficult topics in the community of the Kingdom? Where is the desire for holistic learning?

Consider pastor/author Glen Packiam's recent blog, "Before You Dismiss Rob Bell, Let's Learn Some Terminology". It provides an initial response to some of the controversy, namely through an analysis of differing views on final salvation and judgement. I really appreciate Packiam's wisdom, and believe that he has some very helpful and valid ideas to offer to this conversation. Pastor/author Aaron Stern's recent article, "Rob Bell and Hell: is love winning?" also provides some insights while also suggesting a Biblical response to such an outcry.

For another thought on the subject, which includes the controversial promo video for Bell's book and which defines certain potential sub-categories of universalism, refer to "Universalism and the Doctrine of Rob Bell" by professor/author Scot Mcknight of North Park University. And for a more direct perspective on the issue, take a few moments to view a recent interview between MSNBC's Martin Bashir and Rob Bell. What does it add to the discussion?

Furthermore, or lastly, please read some of Bell's work, including his most recent book, before forming conclusions. The enemy seeks to divide and disrupt the Kingdom of YHWH. We must be mindful of this when addressing disagreement within the Church. We must resist the inclination to direct our attention and energies to a spiritual civil war. Rob Bell and his students are not the enemy. Gregory Boyd and his students are not the enemy. N.T. Wright and his students are not the enemy. John Piper and his students are not the enemy. Who is the true enemy? The enemy of the Kingdom of YHWH is Lucifer. The enemy is the third of Heaven that fell with him. The enemy is what remains of our proud worldly nature. May we be mindful of it. Note that Paul wrote to the early churches about not becoming divided over who followed whom: whether Paul or Apollos or Peter, for example. It is about following Jesus, Paul wrote. All teachings must be weighed against the Word of God: Jesus, the Word since the very beginning.

May we be quick to listen and slow to speak. May we engage the world with love. For without love, all that we are--all that we do--ultimately amounts to nothing. Without love, we would all have nothing.

Soli Deo Gloria. Amen.

Valentine's Day Gift

2011-02-12T14:10:00.000-08:00

Trying to think of a unique Valentine's Day gift? Why not consider giving a beautiful image as a card or framed print? Choose from a wide selection of romantic images from around the world. Go to J.D. Grubb Photography.

STAND: February Update

2011-02-03T18:09:00.000-08:00

Thank you so much for your continued prayers and expressions of encouragement. I truly feel it as the pages of this new year turn. I discern the Spirit of YHWH working through many things around me, despite the remaining uncertainties of life.

Though I will not be recounting my adventures in England, California, and Arizona, please take a few moments to peruse my photo album of highlights for an idea of the great travels and family time that occurred. I was totally encouraged and blessed by the rich memories. Thank you, Dad and Mom, as well as our hosts, for making it possible.

In general, I am still in construction work, though business is patchy during the winter months and tax season. In the meantime, I await my Colorado 3-Year Substitute Teaching License and look forward to applying to a couple local school districts to hopefully begin substitute teaching history, German, physical education, or whatever is needed this upcoming fall at the latest. I will be assistant coaching cross country at Falcon High School this upcoming fall as well, which I really look forward to revisiting. Most of the team members were juniors or younger.

Furthermore, I am using what time I can to fill the pages of my second novel, which is a companion piece to my first. As of yet, I have received no interest from literary agents for the first book, but there are still many to hear from and likely many more to query. I value your prayers with regards to finding the right agent and eventually a publisher.

Finally, I have had some enlivening musical opportunities over this last half year, including the present. Sometimes it seems like music is a flower blossoming in my life. It is exciting to watch its nature unfold. Thank you, Elliott, for introducing me to many unfamiliar domains. I have learned so much from you. Last autumn, my friends Elliott Irby, Tyler Griffith, and I recorded an album together. It was an ambitious goal as Elliott was already busily preparing his family to leave for mission’s work in Cyprus and as Tyler was also finalizing his plans for becoming a missionary in Mexico. Nonetheless, after many rehearsals and a number of late night recording sessions, we completed the project. If you are interested in hearing and downloading the free album please go to www.noisetrade.com/redwood. If you are interested in having the leaflet for the album, which includes the story behind the project and lyrics, please let me know and I will be happy to email it to you. You can also visit us and keep updated on live performances and future projects at our Redwood page. We really appreciate your support.

Overall, it is hard to guess what this year will ultimately bring. But I feel a profound peace, a sense of confidence stronger than years before. YHWH has provided faithfully during these last years, and I perceive no reason why He will not continue to do so. I sense Him moving through so much that I do and am part of it. It is an overwhelming blessing. Hallelujah.

Glory be to the Father. Amen.
Glory be to the Son. Amen.
Glory be to the Spirit. Amen.

There was Music

2011-02-03T16:42:00.000-08:00

My band, Redwood, recently completed a debut album, "There was Music", which can be sampled and downloaded for free online. If you are interested in receiving a digital copy of the leaflet, to read the story behind the album as well as have some lyrics, please let me know and I will be happy to email it to you. Thank you so much for your support. Please share it with others also.

May our music offer you beauty and peaceful reflection. For YHWH's glory. Amen.

Friendships

2011-01-26T07:51:00.001-08:00

What is friendship? What is a friend?

One of my closest friends, Ramona Sebald, just began a blog series on friendship. In it she will be asking various people to offer their perspectives on the subject. If you are interested in reading some of my musings, please refer to Ramona's recent post, "Some Thoughts on Friendship".

Praise YHWH for friendship.

Some Thoughts on South Africa

2010-12-29T06:20:00.001-08:00

I am constanstly fascinated and grieved by South African apartheid. While there is much that I have yet to learn about the country and its history, Dave Benson's article "Poverty, Oppression, and Freedom" offers some poignant insight with regards to Nelson Mandela, Miroslav Volf, and Jesus Christ. Please take some time to read and reflect on it.

Merry Christmas. May the significance of Jesus' birth live on in our memories. Happy New Year. May the promise of Christ's Kingdom and its activity throughout the world guide us through this next year. Amen.

Stories change the World

2010-12-11T04:34:00.000-08:00

Pastor Aaron Stern's recent blog, "Why Read Fiction", offers some poignant introductory thoughts on the power of storytelling as a medium for discussing Truth.

To those who already recognize this importance, be encouraged. To those who seldom or never read fiction, please, please reconsider. Fiction, namely particularly good fiction ("Classic" Literature is an excellent place to begin: e.g. anything by Fyodor Dostoevsky, Leo Tolstoy, J.R.R. Tolkien, and even William Shakespeare--to name but a few; as well as the relatively more recent works of Chaim Potok, Khaled Hosseini, or Cormac McCarthy--to name but a few more) has changed my life. And it continues to do so profoundly.

Let us not forgo fiction, but rather encourage an appetite for it. Indeed, let us respond to the world' insatiably hunger for meaning--for a broader context: a story--by offering it the feast that is the narrative of YHWH's Kingdom.

Advent

2010-12-04T14:08:00.000-08:00

For a dynamic discourse on Advent, please read Rob Bell's recent article, "Why Should We Care About Advent?".

"Advent confronts this corrosion of the heart with the insistence that God has not abandoned the world, hope is real and something is coming. Advent charges into the temple of cynicism with a whip of hope, overturning the tables of despair, driving out the priests of that jaded cult, announcing there’s a new day and it’s not like the one that came before it."

May your season of Advent be blessed. Amen.

limited time DISCOUNT on Photography

2010-11-05T11:13:00.000-07:00

I hope you are thoroughly enjoying this gloriously vibrant--and in Colorado Springs, unusually warm--Autumn. I am beginning to wonder when the snow will come, and in what nature its coming will present itself.

I am writing to let you know that if you are wondering what gift(s) to give--or receive for that matter--for Thanksgiving, Christmas, birthdays, or favorite person days then may I suggest that a printed card or matted and framed photograph of a beautiful and inspiring setting is always a great option. Furthermore, it can be particularly meaningful when the image was captured by someone you are related to, are friends with, know, knew at one point, think you might have met at your friend's cousin's girlfriends digital "ugly sweater party" but whose name you have now consciously forgotten, or just wish would go back into the wilderness and stay there. Whatever the case may be, please consider forgoing that upteenth tie for your uncle or set of six pairs of discount socks and underwear--no matter how practical they may be--and instead support me as an artist by going to RedBubble.com and selecting a image or images of choice to have printed as a card or matted and framed photograph. I have seen the finished product from the Australian-based artistic company, and they are lovely. And as just one more shameless marketing plug, you can all make purchases for 15% off during the next week (until November 14). Wow . . . incredible. So take advantage of this rare opportunity and be a JD Grubb Photography patron of sorts.

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On a more, albeit brief, serious note, thank you so much for the support you have shown me over the years. I really do appreciate it. And it is a thankfulness that will in no way be altered by your immediate deletion and disregard of this email; though you may just find yourself becoming the new and proud owner of a set of discount socks for your next birthday. Cheers and Happy Thanksgiving.

On Running

2010-10-16T07:18:00.000-07:00

I have been running seriously since I was nine years old. I competed in both Cross Country and Track & Field from junior high through college. Those years thoroughly shaped my life. I still run with dedication and compete occasionally. I now even spend part of my time coaching high school runners.

There is so much that I could express about running. In truth, when I began to write reflectively about it I quickly exceeded two-hundred words—and I had not yet even completed my introductory thoughts. I have, therefore, tried to limit my ideas to their most rugged and poetic form. In one way what results is quite simple. In another way it is somewhat complex. To God be all glory. Amen.

Layers of Dust
By J.D. Grubb

Running

Exposed humanity: frail body and angry thought,
Temporal distances fragmented by illusive ambitions
Cultivated by civilization, broken by wilderness: drought
Layers of dust, winter crust on skin and path; visions
Of shrill winds through frosted morning windows,
Heavy heat desiccating being: mouth and sinews.
Humbled pride—hide your face. Return?

Running

Reveals redemption: cleansing mortality,
Freeing mind, external strength bracing perspective.
Nature unveils creation: colored leaves whisper,
Layers of dust—journey—snow-white roads lit by moon;
Lark song of morning brilliance, quiet painted dusk,
Undulating hills, deep forests, mirror lakes, noble peaks.
Humbled love—lifelong race: Return

Manhood

2010-10-10T08:52:00.000-07:00

Please check out this clip recently posted by Pastor Aaron Stern in his blog entry, "Do we have a Man-crisis?"

I really appreciate how the pastor speaking in the clip addresses all men of all ages. For in truth each generation is in some way connected to its predecessors and prodigy, whether each acknowledges it or not--or even likes it.

Men of every generation, let us stand for something. Let us stand for Truth. Let us stand for a Kingdom that transcends our own.

Let us stand together.

Overview of Ephesians

2010-10-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

Please take 15 minutes to watch/listen to a lecture by Dr. N.T. Wright to the student body at Wheaton College, the content of which very concisely summarizes Paul's message to the early church in Ephesus. The clip can be viewed via this link.

Let us, therefore, stand together in unity against the fragmenting stratagems of the enemies of the Kingdom of YHWH. Peace be with you.

STAND: Berlin

2010-09-03T18:49:00.000-07:00

Greetings family, friends, and people I may not yet be blessed to know.

I hope you are very well, seamlessly transitioning into your autumn schedule. Forgive me for taking so long to complete this update on my mission trip to Germany. It required a lot of time and work in order to bring it to a satisfactory point of completion. Thank you so much for your prayers, words of encouragement, and financial support. They made this trip, and in many ways the eight months prior working at theMILL, possible. I really cannot thank you enough.

There is a lot that I took away from those two weeks in Berlin. If you would like to receive a full account with a few photos of the entire experience, which was adapted from a series of journal entries that were written immediately after the trip, please let me know and I will email it to you.

Overall, thank you for being part of this journey I call STAND. While it is certainly not finished, I am now living through a season of rest from direct missional work. I have been working with a good friend in his family construction business as well as assistant coaching cross country at a local high school. Both opportunities have been a blessing not only financially, but relationally and educationally as well. They are yet further means for learning and growth as well as possible catalysts for revelation about the future. I would appreciate your prayers regarding both, and will keep you informed of any further developments. I have also submitted an application for substitute teaching in the same school district and am still working to catch the attention of a literary agent for my fictional writing endeavors.

Life is full of various opportunities, dreams, and blessings. I am very thankful for what has been given, and even at times for what has been withheld. To God be all glory, forever and ever. Amen.

So we keep praying for Kenya

2010-08-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

Note: Below is an excerpt from my second-cousin Tara Skarin who has been working in Africa the last few years. As always, I find her perspective and insights refreshingly astute.

There’s been a lot of fuss lately over the new constitution Kenyans are voting on soon. They are badly in need of a new constitution, but the current draft has a few allowances that have made a lot of Kenyans, especially in churches, not accept it. In multiple churches, I have heard pastors encouraging their congregations to vote no on the new constitution because it allows abortion to be legalized, lets Muslims set up their own court system, and allows international treaties to become Kenyan law without Kenyan people being allowed to vote on them.

The American vice president was here last week talking to top officials (and disorganizing traffic and cell phone reception for everyone else). The team saw his wife in Kibera and came back with lots of stories. The American government is “encouraging” Kenyans to vote yes on the new constitution and promising lots of money if they do.

Promises of money make me nervous though. Sometimes western aid and money is a bit dubious and often doesn’t go to the proper people. The strings attached aren’t always in the best interests of the people of the receiving country. I heard some Ugandans complaining about western “aid” that requires homosexuality to be legalized and taught in schools. This is an extremely taboo subject for Ugandans and the promotion of its acceptance horrific to most Ugandan consciences, Christian or not. It makes me wonder what kind of “gospel” western liberalism is bringing to the world in the name of “human rights”.

They will vote in the next few months. I will be curious to see what happens. I will avoid the slums that week too. The slightest provocation is enough to make everyone riot. They’ve been passing out copies of the constitution all over Kenya for people to read and decide for themselves. I just pray that what is best will be done, not what is most profitable. But from my experiences here, what I’ve seen is that when money is the sole source of justice and power in a nation, that will also be the measure for making all decisions, and so what is profitable will win out over what is best and right. So we keep praying for Kenya.

Tara
June 14, 2010

grey areas in Art

2010-07-15T17:48:00.000-07:00

Brett McCracken's article, "When is Watching a Movie Wrong?" offers some important thoughts on the topic of Art and the Kingdom of God. I have already written much in an article titled "New Eyes," which I would be happy to send anyone if he or she is interested.

A choice example that falls into the "gray area" due to some harsh language and explicit sexual dialogue is Sam Mendes' recent independent film, "Away We Go". Though the two protagonists are not married--a common assumption in today's American relational culture--their journey, which is spurred on because of her getting pregnant, is one that I believe searches for Truth--namely, making sense of all the mess--more profoundly than most films. There is a lot of brokenness in our world. I appreciate when a film acknowledges that state while searching for something more. Of course, I believe that without YHWH nothing will ultimately fulfill that longing for wholeness that everyone yearns for; however, there have been some great works of art that I believe come astoundingly close. This is occasionally achieved with regard to the pursuit of real Love. A few other examples of such that I resonate with are (in no particular order) "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind", "Hitch", "Elizabethtown", "Definitely, Maybe", "500 Days of Summer", and "Adam". It is a curious, and perhaps telling, fact that at least half of these films are independent productions. But that leads to a discussion for another time. Cheers.

STAND: GO

2010-05-26T18:15:00.000-07:00

The time has come to return to Europe, particularly the German country and people that I admire. The theme of theMILL Missions this year is “Go.” Nearly 200 college students and twenty-somethings from the MILL, therefore, are now at the final threshold from which to set forth to four corners of the world. Mindy, my Team Leader Support staff co-leader, and I will be leaving tomorrow, Thursday May 27, two days ahead of our four teams to strategically finalize various schedule details with our contacts as well as participate in welcoming the teams to Berlin.

During our two-week stay in Berlin-Tegel, we will be learning about German cultural and spiritual history with a particular focus on Berlin from Fabian, one of our primary hosts and a pastor of Gemeinde auf dem Weg, who will be facilitating these lessons in order that we better understand the culture and people with whom we are engaging. Some major points of interest may be a visit to Pergamon Museum, Checkpoint Charlie, Wittenberg, Herrnhut, the concentration camp of Sachsenhausen, and Potsdam. A number of these excursions will be with youth and staff from the church not only to experience such learning together, but to also provide a setting for richer dialogue as well as continued opportunity to build relationships.

The fundamental aspect of our trip to Berlin will be to support the members of Gemeinde auf dem Weg through practical service and holistic relational encouragement. The staff and students of this church are the ones who are making long-term investments in the people of Berlin. They are the ones who are most consistently reaching out to disciple the Berlin populace. Their mission field, and ours for these two weeks, is a post-Christian land saturated with humanistic and atheistic worldviews. It is a difficult environment to live in as an evangelical Believer. While there is not necessarily physical persecution, there can be certain degrees of spiritual, intellectual, and sometimes emotional hardship. We as theMILL teams hope to bolster our German brothers and sisters in their daily efforts to engage and overcome such challenges. We will be doing this through connections made during meals, worship and prayer gatherings, visits to church youth and cell groups, local outreach, Sunday morning and evening services, university outreach, and working with the church’s caretaker. Again, the essential focus of this trip will be to serve and partner with the people of Gemeinde auf dem Weg in their ministry to Berlin.

Please pray fervently for our MILL teams, including those serving throughout Egypt, India, and Peru in the same timeframe. For some there will be physical and mental barriers to overcome. For others, there will be deeply-rooted spiritual bastions to overcome. Pray that YHWH not only transforms nationals through our lives, but transforms our own lives as well. Pray that we serve with an abundance of joy as effective witnesses of the Kingdom of God. Pray that the Holy Spirit works through the Team Leader Support staff and our in-country debrief to stir Team Leaders and Members toward healthy processing. Sometimes returning home can be the most difficult aspect of a mission’s trip. Nonetheless, it is for His glory that we traverse countless miles and serve in foreign lands. It is for His glory that we live and serve. To YHWH be all glory, honor, and praise. Amen.

STAND: Bread

2010-04-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

I recently embarked on yet another outdoor adventure without full comprehending its formidable nature. In short, I intended to ride my mountain bike from downtown Colorado Springs to Palmer Lake. I was familiar with about thirty miles of the route, but did not anticipate the additional twenty-three miles that it would wield against me. I also did not foresee the incessant headwind that would berate my mind and body.

Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval (John 6:27).

Though I was already tired from an eighteen-mile ride the previous day, I set out determined to conquer the unknown. Considering the conditions, including the gradual ascent to the lake, the northbound half of the ride was quite challenging. I overcame it mentally, however, by anticipating a tail wind and gradual descent for the return trip, as well as the Nature Valley bar in my back jersey pocket waiting to be eaten. While the latter two elements did aid me in my journey, the former did not. As midmorning approached, the wind altered its course against me.

For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world (John 6:33)

I felt my body quickly tiring. At the point where the Santa Fe Trail meets the Pike’s Peak Greenway Trail, near the Woodman Road overpass, the last reserve of my energy dissipated. I stopped to lie down on a bench, desperately hoping that the respite would rejuvenate my body for the remaining eight miles of the journey. However, my whole upper body began to go numb. My blood sugar was very low. I asked an elderly couple if they had any food to spare, but they did not have anything accessible. Not recognizing any better option but to try to mentally push through the physical exhaustion, I got back on the bike.

I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty (John 6:35b).

There is a time when weariness is not rooted in psychology. It is a fascinating, humbling, and sometimes unsettling physiological limit to reach. In one sense—at least in retrospect—I welcome such circumstances. I learn from them. At a fundamental level, I learn to take certain precautions for future endeavors. Yet, at a deeper level I learn or am reminded of certain truths concerning my relationship with God. Lately, the common lesson has pertained to YHWH’s empowerment and provision.

I tell you the truth, he who believes has everlasting life. I am the bread of life (John 6:47-48).

Soon after leaving the bench, I knew I was in trouble. The “pins-and-needles” sensation overwhelmed my whole upper body. Having no phone or wallet with me, my remaining options were to solicit a ride from a stranger or finish the journey through sheer willpower. Thankfully, another solution soon presented itself as a familiar restaurant suddenly came into view. I recalled how this particular restaurant serves bread before the meal, and wondered whether an employee would be willing to give me one of those small loaves. Concentrating on my enunciation due to a half-numb face, I therefore briefly explained the situation to a kind hostess. She understood immediately, and then proceeded to offer me a warm loaf of bread along with some water. I took this manna from heaven outside then proceeded to slowly replenish my body.

But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which a man may eat and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world (John 6:50-51).

Once finished, I got back on the bike—somewhat uncertainly at first—but then proceeded to ride the remaining eight miles in full strength. I even passed a young road cyclist along the way. Though certainly tired, I managed to return home with dignity. I was definitely ready for more food, and my legs and digestive track were a bit worn the following four days; yet by God’s grace I completed what I set out to do. I overcame the trail, and I overcame my human limitations. Without YHWH’s provision, I am not sure that I would have made it. Without His empowering, I would have likely succumbed to defeat.

Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your forefathers ate manna and died, but he who feeds on this bread will live forever (John 6:57-58).

Though I initially thought of Jesus’ “I am the bread of life” statement with a sense of reverent irony, the empowering implications of the Word in John 6 quickly extended beyond my morning trial to other areas of my life. Before making any personal application, though, I would first like to provide some brief context. The main issue in John 6 is unbelief: the crowd’s failure to truly understand the deeper significance of the Torah, Moses, and the exodus. Jesus speaks not only of fulfilling the Law, but also of his purpose in leading Israel and the world out of spiritual bondage (1). The crowd does not struggle as much with the possibility of persecution—they were already living in a state of Roman repression—but with the very words of Jesus. This leads many to abandon him at this point in his ministry. "Abiding and abandoning are both responses to Jesus’ words . . . Most of the disciples were willing to accept Jesus as a worker of wonders but not as the logos of God, His authorized emissary, the revealer. This is the real test of the disciple: 'If you continue in my word, you are truly my disciples' (8:31)" (2).

One of the fundamental ways the enemy seeks to inhibit the progress of the Kingdom is to compromise the confidence of its emissaries. When too much doubt or fear arises, an individual or community is more likely to retreat, divert its course, or simply stop moving. In the face of such attacks, the challenge is to persevere in faith and hope. There are some instances when doubt or fear can be beneficial to the Believer’s growth; however, if doubt or fear presses against the course that God has clearly set before him or her then the better response may be to find the means to overcome such barriers and press on.

Culpepper goes on to write that “In the economy of the Fourth Gospel true bread cannot be bought, it can only be given and received. After the feeding, the fragments are collected in twelve baskets, perhaps indicating that unlike the manna, which was perishable, the bread which Jesus gives does not perish” (3). There is nothing people can do to warrant such nourishment. It is simply a blessed gift to receive and then share with others. Bread is, therefore, an important metaphor for understanding Jesus’ identity. “The theme of bread from heaven is used to affirm Jesus’ origin from above and the superiority of the bread Jesus offers (grace and truth) over the bread Moses gave (Law)” (4).

Having experience the power that even a small loaf of bread can give, let alone the eternal life-giving bread that Jesus offers daily through his Word, Spirit, and Body (the Church), this truth encourages me to continue in the direction I now follow. The direction involves various facets that I have discussed in brief or at great length during the last few years. I do not know how far the road will go before the nature of the destination will become clearer, but I trust that YHWH will continue to provide the means necessary to reach it. I do not know how many barriers or landmarks there will be along the way, but I find solace and confidence in what is already known. In other words, though tomorrow wields numerous uncertainties, I seek to live thankful for the certainties of today. I wonder if this is the best that any of us can do. While the Kingdom of Heaven will one day arrive in full, its standard has already been given and its boundaries expanded for nearly two millennia. How we as Believers live with such truth is an important choice to consider. To God be all glory, forever and ever. Amen.

Sincerely,
JOSHUA

Some Manna
Thank you for your prayers regarding the team leader who is undergoing cancer treatment. Though he struggles with weariness at times, he maintains an enthusiastic and hopeful attitude as his body continues to heal and the Berlin trip approaches. Another blessing is that his community has provided the means necessary for his support to reach 100% for the trip. Praise God.

Another blessing is that nearly every MILL team—of which there are seventeen (5 Egypt teams, 4 Germany teams, 4 India teams, and 4 Peru teams)—has reached the 50% mark for funds raised. A few teams have even reached the 68-70% margin. Though the 75% deadline approaches this Friday, April 23, everyone is encouraged by such progress. We all trust that the Holy Spirit is at work in theMILL Missions and will provide for all its needs. Nonetheless, we value your prayers; for they serve to strengthen what can be done in the Kingdom, including fundraising.

Thank you also for your support. I am blessed to have such a community behind me. Through your prayers and generous giving, 67% of my funds have been raised. Your spiritual and practical support plays a significant role in making my involvement in theMILL Missions possible. Thank you so very much. May God bless you and keep you. May His face shine down upon you, and give you peace. Now and forevermore, Amen.

If you wish to give financially, please go to www.newlifechurch.org and follow the link on the bottom right titled “Giving.” You will then need to create an account. Once that is complete, select “Germany Missions 2010—theMILL” for Fund, and “Joshua Grubb” for Sub Fund.

You can also write a check to New Life Church. Please include “Joshua Grubb, theMILL Missions: Germany” on the subject line. The mailing address is below:

Global Ministries
11025 Voyager Pkwy
Colorado Springs, CO 80921
(719) 594-6602
global@newlifechurch.org

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1. Culpepper, Alan R. Anatomy of the Fourth Gospel: A Study in Literary Design. Fortress Press: Philadelphia (1983), 91-92.
2. -----, 117. It is interesting to note that there is no mention of Jesus actually teaching the crowd until later in chapter six when he arrives at the synagogue in Capernaum. What is important to note, then, is that the crowds had mostly gathered around Jesus because of the signs or miracles he had performed. Chapter six, therefore, is an important shift in Jesus’ engagement with his followers as he begins to explain the significance of those signs (see 131).
3. -----, 195.
4. -----, 196.

Scripture out of Context

2010-04-08T08:39:00.000-07:00

Chris Blumhofer, a writer pursuing ordination in the Presbyterian Church, has written a really interesting article called "The Most Misused Verse in the Bible" (i.e. Jeremiah 29:11). While surely people contend with what verse is actually the most misused, I appreciate Blumhofer's call to read passages in greater context and understanding. I also really like the imagery of the two prophets, Jeremiah and Hananiah, facing each other in the ruins of the Temple in Jerusalem. I welcome your thoughts.

STAND: The Great Campaign

2010-03-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

Thank you for your prayers regarding my job interview with VisionTrust International. Unfortunately, I was not selected for the position. Relative uncertainty remains in the wake of this news; however it is one that I know the Holy Spirit will continue to guide me through. I am glad to continue serving theMILL and its summer mission’s trips in whatever capacity I can.

I appreciate your prayers regarding requests highlighted in my former letter. Our Germany 1 team has a great new female leader, and we even found an outstanding male translator for the two men on the team who are hearing impaired. Furthermore, the male team leader who is undergoing chemo therapy is doing as well as could be hoped for considering the circumstances. As I understand it, treatment is showing promise. Nonetheless, please continue to pray for his swift recovery. Treatment has certainly strained not only his finances, but those of his community as well, so please also pray that the needed funds for the mission’s trip do come in.

On the financial note, thank you all who have responded not only with prayers, but also with faithful giving. With your faithful help, I am currently at about 40% of mission’s trip funds raised. Therefore, I only need to raise $1200 more before May 15.

If you wish to give financially, please go to www.newlifechurch.org and follow the link on the bottom right titled “Giving.” You will then need to create an account. Once that is complete, select “Germany Missions 2010—theMILL” for Fund, and “Joshua Grubb” for Sub Fund.

You can also write a check to New Life Church. Please include “Joshua Grubb, theMILL Missions: Germany” on the subject line. The mailing address is below:

Global Ministries
11025 Voyager Pkwy
Colorado Springs, CO 80921
(719) 594-6602
global@newlifechurch.org

As always, I really value your prayers. As much of the Church increasingly focuses its attention on Christ’s death and resurrection, it seems that the Enemy has been increasingly ruthless in disrupting not only my focus, but that of my friends and community alike. This has manifested itself in a number of ways, including financial stress, small but distracting fiascos, uncertainty about life or the future, and even physical health in some circumstances. Thankfully, I have had none of the latter. Nonetheless, please be fervent in prayer. I welcome your own prayer requests as well. For prayer is one of our most crucial weapons against the Enemy as well as one of the primary means by which the Kingdom of God is united in spirit and purpose. To God be all glory and honor. Amen.

Every year, before the culmination of Easter, I seek to very consciously remember the holistic cost YWHW paid on behalf of His Creation. One means by which I have chosen to do so is through the brutally realistic and tearfully humbling portrayal of Jesus’ final twelve hours in Mel Gibson’s film, “The Passion of the Christ.” It always reminds me of how unworthy I am of such love, how I really have nothing to complain about. Praise God for His Love that deems us worthy.

Reviewing the history of Israel and the covenant offered to it by YHWH, the Lord of Creation, one comes to understand that God’s holiness does not allow Him to be in true fellowship with anything marred by sin. Israel’s incessant choice of things other than God shapes much of the Old Testament narrative. Fortunately, YHWH never tires of lovingly offering Israel the means by which it could return to complete relationship with Him and the presence of His Spirit. This is evident in how God continues to further define the Law given to Moses, formally beginning in Exodus 20:1-17, until that understanding culminates in Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 5-7). Unfortunately, the fellowship between YHWH and Israel never remained truly permanent. It was not that YHWH’s character was lacking or changed. It was that Israel’s character was lacking, too easily influenced by the rebellious lies of the fallen angel Lucifer and his followers. Thus, Israel was often pressed away from the light toward the darkness, to which judgment had to ensue so that the Lord’s holy integrity might be upheld. Israel, YHWH’s chosen people, along with the rest of humanity, was clearly too frail to maintain what was required of them by the Law. They needed liberation from their corrupted nature and the influences of the great deceiver. They needed a savior, or as the ancient prophets of Israel foretold: a messiah.

“Enemy-occupied territory,” writes C.S. Lewis, “that is what this world is. Christianity is the story of how the rightful king has landed, you might say landed in disguise, and is calling us all to take part in a great campaign of sabotage” (Mere Christianity). Hallelujah that YHWH answered humanity’s need and invaded the world as a man (Philippians 2:6-11). Jesus was the only one pure enough to fulfill that which God’s holy justice required. Praise God that it did not end with mere death, but rather continues on with the promise of life everlasting. He has risen. Relationship with our Creator, the King of Heaven, has not only been permanently restored, and continues every moment of every day through the indwelling of YHWH’s Holy Spirit, but it is offered to any who would receive it.

Yet, the war for the world has not yet ended. The rebellion of Lucifer and his angels has been raging since the beginning of time, and we are caught amidst it: the target of YWHW’s love against that of Satan’s jealousy. But by his life, death, and resurrection, Jesus has reasserted his Father’s lordship over Creation. The Enemy’s stronghold has been breached. Its collapse is imminent. We have but to take up arms (Ephesians 6:10-18) and join in the “great campaign” of the Kingdom of God as more than conquerors, with faithful confidence in the promise that Jesus will one day return to end the war and establish his complete and unchallenged authority over the earth as it is in Heaven. Hence we pray, “your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven” (Matthew 6:10). In it there is empowered hope. In it there is purposeful life. “Amen. Come, Lord Jesus” (Revelation 22:20b).

Articles on the Bible and Liturgy

2010-03-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

Firstly, Aaron Stern's blog "What the Bible is not" professes a great reminder of the importance of the broad Biblical narrative; that it is about the history (past, present, and future) of God seeking relationship with mankind.

Secondly, Glenn Packiam's blog "Why We Incorporate Historical Liturgy at NewLifeSundayNight" offers some great insight into the value of liturgy in worship and life.

STAND: Lent 2010

2010-02-25T13:52:00.000-08:00

As I reflect on this new season, I once again recall the small mountain I climbed in Arapahoe National Park, CO (see previous letter for detailed account). The photo above was taken at a rocky outcrop about halfway up the mountain. Though it was a place of both physical and mental respite, it was not the destination. The summit still loomed forbiddingly to my right, to which I perceived that the way ahead would be as difficult and uncertain as the previous half. Yet, a spirit of determination carried me onward. I trusted that no matter the challenges, all would be well in the end.

As March approaches, the challenges of the next months only seem to be mounting. I would really appreciate your prayers, specifically regarding the following facets:

1. Wise servant leadership as I seek to support theMILL 2010 Germany Team Leaders (TL). There are three teams, each with a male and female co-leader. We will be learning about and assisting the Berlin ministries of Gemeinde auf dem Weg (“Church of the Way”), May 29 - June 13. Some current trip requests are as follows:

a. Translators (American Sign Language) for a team that has two men who are hearing impaired. Pray that team unity would flourish despite communication challenges.
b. A new female TL for the aforementioned team. The previous female TL had to drop out.
c. One male TL is undergoing chemo therapy for cancer. He is uncertain how it will affect his leadership role. Please pray with me for the swift healing of his body.
d. The 50% support deadline ($1000) is March 12. So far, I have raised $150. Please prayerfully consider giving toward this mission’s trip financially. Your gifts are the practical means that will enable me to go. (Email me at jgrubb@newlifechurch.org for details about how to give.)

2. Additional Ministry Developments:
a. A missionary friend and I are considering a strategic European Vision Trip within the next year.
b. After eleven years of content evolution, and roughly five years of writing, I have completed my first novel. This is a major step toward one community (i.e. Art) that YHWH has called me to engage. I sent out query letters to literary agents earlier this month. Please pray with me that the right agent will be interested in not only reading my whole manuscript, but in representing me to publishers as well.

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. Days are seldom easy, and there often seem to be more questions than answers. But as I seek to place a few elements of my life to the side during this period of Lent, I have found a wellspring of peace within the Word of God and in the moments of laughter, creativity, adventure, and learning shared with good friends. I pray that you might also find such encouragement, and I pray that you discern God’s present and active faithfulness in your lives.

And may we all remember that no matter what uncertainties and challenges lie ahead, Jesus offers us a promise of ultimate victory. The summit will be reached. We have but to believe that it will be so, and that through the power of God’s Spirit our choices can serve to honorably reflect that final triumph to neighbors, communities, and nations. To God be all glory, forever and ever. AMEN.

Koinonia vs. Ecclesia

2010-02-11T12:38:00.000-08:00

For those of you who have ever been part of a debate concerning the koinonia church model (e.g. home church) versus the ecclesia church model (e.g. the mega church), I recommend Aaron Stern's recent blog post, "Half Church: there's more to it". It offers some helpful insights regarding this subject.

As a sub point, I particularly appreciate when he writes, "What if differences in biblical interpretation is a reminder to focus on the absolutes of Scripture and embrace unity?"

Connections to the Literary World?

2010-01-29T11:11:00.000-08:00

One part of the journey [to engage communities through art] ends, while another begins:

Step 1: Complete manuscript for first fantasy novel. CHECK.
Step 2: Find a great literary agent. . . .

So, as I research potential agents to send query letters and so forth to, I am additionally trying to determine whether anyone I already know has connections to the literary publishing world, or at least any suggestions. The journey ahead can definitely feel daunting, but I am trying to maintain a sense of optimism alongside enduring determination. Therefore, onward. . . .

God's Mysterious Will

2010-01-21T15:46:00.000-08:00

I am beginning to believe that the debate between scholars such as John Piper and Gregory Boyd, regarding the definition of God's will, will never be concluded in this life. Perhaps that is the fundamental idea that all Christians must acknowledge: that we will never fully comprehend what God's will actually is. How many lives have been turned away from the Church because it members value certain theological doctrines more than relationship? Perhaps YHWH is less interested in our understanding of every facet of His "I am"-ness, but more interested in our active relationship with Him. Do a husband and wife ever come to a point where they know and understand everything about each other? As a young single adult, I cannot really answer that; but I imagine that there are unsolved mysterious at the end of their lives. But is not the essential purpose of marriage less about complete understanding of one another and more about complete love of one another (and the heavy load that Love entails—embodied by God—which itself bears untold mysteries)? Love in part seems to be about surrender our need to fully understand; that we will serve one another no matter our limitations.

Anyway, I believe Ed Gungor's article, "God's Mysterious Will", provides some valuable insights to reflect upon. (Note: if you are interested in knowing more about Gungor, you can visit www.edgungor.com. I always believe that it is helpful to know a little about the author). I believe that, perhaps more than anything else I have ever read, Gugnor presents a very tactful outline for us to begin understanding God’s will as comprised of: 1. His sovereign will, 2. His pursued will, and 3. His challenged will.

I challenge everyone, including myself, to engage with such thoughts with open minds. Other theologians aside, there is validity in his Scriptural assessment (at least from my own reading of the Word). Surely, others will interpret such passages differently because they already think they understand what is really true. Thus, I challenge us all to read and re-read carefully; to really examine the Scriptures with humble and open attentiveness to the Holy Spirit's stirring.

I am sure there is much more that could be written, but I would probably have to address every single aspect of theology to adequately do so. I do not have that kind of energy. Besides, in a way, I do not think our understanding of Truth is as important as our attempts to actually live according to Truth every day. Please know that I believe that understanding is very important. The writers of Proverbs often speak of the value of both knowledge and wisdom. I begin to think that wisdom ultimately comes from the Holy Spirit. Thus, we must faithfully pursue both. But amidst that journey we must also live as best and graciously as we can with the maturing knowledge and understanding that we have, as well as the awareness that we will never fully know and understand everything (i.e. be perfect). Praise God for His grace, that despite our frailties He has pursued relationship with us since the beginning of time.

STAND: A New Year . . . A New Season

2010-01-19T14:38:00.000-08:00

The following are some highlights from this past holiday season, which are by no means exhaustive. My journey began on December 21 as I flew to CA. My parents, uncle, and I stayed with my grandparents at their house in San Jose. It was a time of warmth and celebration as we enjoyed scrumptious meals, baked goods, activities, as well as a festive Christmas Day with most of the extended family. A day in San Francisco with our friend Scot Boyd at LucasArts where he works, and snowboarding at Lake Tahoe with my cousin Jordan and extended family, were also very memorable. Not long after Christmas, my parents left for Kentucky to be with my sister, brother-in-law, and new nephew. In the meantime, those of us who remained enjoyed a fun New Year’s together with family. On January 5, I departed by plane to Wheaton, IL where I spent the next few days supporting my friend Andrew Tebbe as a groomsman in his wedding. He and Laura are both BFA alumni as well as part of the OC family. During that time, I was also blessed to connect with four other BFA classmates: Amy Bristol, Sarah Drake, Andi Custer, and Dan Gorrell. There, I also got to reconnect with my parents, sister, and 7-week old nephew, Daniel (a.k.a. “Little-D”). After the wedding festivities, we drove from West Chicago—where we had stayed with my Uncle Tim and Aunt Cleia’s family—to Fort Mitchell, KY. It was great to stay with Tab and Ryan, and to get a sense of their daily lives. It was also great to get to know Daniel more, a definite character. Finally, on January 13, my parents drove me to the Indianapolis, IN airport where I flew back to CO. I feel blessed to have been able to spend such rich weeks with my family. Back in CO, I immediately returned to my work at theMILL, part of which included a leadership retreat this last weekend. Overall, I perceive that this year will be composed of important, possibly life-changing, events in my life. I pray that it be so for all of us. I look forward to hearing about your own lives, and to sharing more from mine as it progresses. Please be praying for theMILL missions, e.g. that every need is met. . . . For to stand is certainly a journey.

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It is in untamed nature where I often find the greatest clarity; for it is there that YHWH often reminds me of my true self. Journeying into the wild is full of risks, and some are perhaps seemingly unnecessary; but there is liberation in such ventures, and I cannot live without it. Thus, I recently assailed a small mountain in Arapahoe National Park, CO. With only old running shoes and basic long socks on my feet (a bit foolish, I admit), I left a well-groomed cross-country skiing trail to trudge through 3-4ft deep snow up a very steep forested mountainside. Though there was no visible trail, the hope of a majestic panorama was too much to ignore. Yet, such a goal can be illusive. It may look reasonable from a distance; but the closer we approach, the larger it becomes until its true form makes itself known. Now, some of the challenges were a result of my own relative insanity (e.g. hiking alone without telling anyone, no snow shoes, no water, a possible sprained ankle from a past run), but I am used to such limitations. Sometimes they are deliberate, and sometimes they are not. Then, I knew what I was risking; but, I did not anticipate the extent to which my will—and to some degree my body—would be tested. Two or three times I considered turning around. Numerous tracks crossed my intended path, yet none of them were human. My feet eventually lost half their feeling, and I did not know how far I still had to climb. I knew I would be in serious trouble if I got injured. Snow covered rocks and branches could be my undoing, and dusk was approaching with swiftly dropping temperatures. Yet, I could not help but wonder whether the summit was just beyond sight? It has been written that many give up without realizing how close they are to the end, and that many victories have been won on the verge of utter disaster. Therefore, with stubborn resolve I pressed on, praying that God would graciously sustain my mind and body by His strength. I was prepared to face the consequences. As my energy progressively decreased, each step required incredible willpower. Due to the angle of the incline, it was as though I was actually wading through waist-deep snow. I am actually surprised that I never fully lost my balance and fell. Commandeering two dry sticks helped in that regard. Much of my weariness was eventually overlooked, however, as the terrain finally leveled out to reveal a bronze sky radiating through the trees. It was as though I was witnessing the aura of Heaven’s gates. My eyes could not see beyond the light; yet I perceived that within it resided the Holy. It was beautiful. A landscape of snow-capped mountain ranges that descended to valleys of alpine forests surrounded my mountain view. It was glorious. Reaching the pinnacle, I was reminded of YHWH’s faithfulness. Certain dreams are still shrouded in uncertainty, but I sense that I must continue following the path before me—one that I believe has been offered by my LORD. The journey does not necessarily end there—my descent was still difficult, and there are likely other peaks or valleys to eventually tread. However, I know that YHWH is with me. I may stumble and fall along the way, but He is faithful. His Kingdom is near. Therefore, we can all stand together by His grace. We can hope that what is now unseen will one day be seen. Soli Deo Gloria—to God alone be the glory. AMEN.

Love's Pure Light

2009-12-24T23:20:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas, friends.

It is a beautiful season to remember the first coming of "Love's pure light;" how it illuminates our hearts if we so allow--even through the longest nights--and how it will one day return like dawn: the advent of true peace. To God be all glory, honor, and praise. Amen.

The Spiritual Act of Staying

2009-12-17T12:40:00.000-08:00

Cameron Lawrence's "No Place Like Home" is possibly one of the most thought-provoking articles I have read on relevantmagazine.com.

One of the best ideas is actually a quote from Wendell Berry: "How can [members of a community] know one another if they have forgotten or have never learned one another’s stories? If they don’t know one another’s stories, how can they know whether or not to trust one another? People who do not trust one another do not help one another, and moreover they fear one another.”

Faces of a Broken World

2009-12-14T12:18:00.001-08:00

If the world is indeed full of frail, lonely people, then how is it (or are they) to find any hope of persevering against a face of utter despair unless a few rise up from their own brokenness to offer what little strength and hope remain? For only then can the cracks begin to mend. Only then, through the grace and for the glory of God, can the world be made whole again.

Therefore, rise up. Rise up and stand with the face of a servant and the heart of a conqueror; for the sword of redemption has already long been at hand. It merely waits for us. It waits for us to rise from the shadows to receive the source of its light. It waits for us to wield such hope against despair.

Let it be so, and the world shall be set free. Let it be so, and we, its fragile people, shall find peace. Now and forevermore. AMEN.

A Servant to Africa

2009-12-07T12:38:00.000-08:00

Check out this video of my second cousin, Tara Skarin, who has been a model to me of someone who completely dedicates herself to the work of YHWH in a foreign land. Tara, thank you, and God bless you as you continue to serve Him passionately and faithfully in Africa.

Celebrate

2009-12-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

Christmas is a time of celebration. A time to celebrate the memory of Jesus' birth: the first coming of the Son of YHWH to the world, which had been anticipated for generations. Celebrate that when he came, it was the greatest act of redemption--and the most blatant act of war--the world has ever seen. But it is also a time to celebrate the second coming, that unknown point in history when Jesus shall return to conclude the matter and lead the world into an era of unparalleled peace.

So, express the joy of such hopeful anticipation wherever you are this season. Celebrate through the delight of friendships and family, the freedom of giving, and the expression of worshipful song. Together, let us continue to open our hearts for the beautiful riches and depth of this Christmas season.

To God be all glory and honor, forever and ever. AMEN.

Silent Night

2009-12-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

Perhaps peace in this world is a choice: a gift of grace offered by invisible hands that we have the opportunity to receive. For can we find or even think to create peace by our own fragile means: things visible, yet so temporary?

The Church Needs Storytellers

2009-11-29T16:13:00.000-08:00

Go to Glenn Packiam's recent post, "Eugene Peterson on Bono, The Message, and the Importance of Good Fiction" to watch a full-length interview with theologian, Eugene Peterson, at Point Loma University. Overall, I really appreciate his thoughts regarding storytellers (i.e. writers).

The Pursuit of Dreams

2009-11-27T13:35:00.000-08:00

Cara Davis' article, "In Pursuit of Your Passion", offers some interesting thoughts on the pursuit of dreams.

I have heard others (e.g. Aaron Stern, pastor of theMILL--the college/20-something ministry at New Life Church) echo the notion that many (but not necessarily all) can feel free to try a variety of jobs and pursuits in their twenties. God can definitely work through such a journey of exploration and transition. Yet, with that, it has also been said that most should have a pretty good idea of where their lives are going once they reach their thirties. This seems like sound advice in a general sense. Again, not everyone may have that freedom; especially those with families to provide for. Though, as one article commenter wrote: "I think you have to be able to get past the question, "how will I support myself/family" (Ben DeWitt).

Nonetheless, perhaps the nature of American culture today almost even dictates that 20-somethings try a number of different jobs. Many job opportunities (especially in this economy) are short-term, which requires the 20-something to move on and try something else. Also, many job domains seem closely guarded by the older generations (i.e. Builder and Boomers). This has been said to still be affecting generation Y, let alone the millennials (i.e. generation X, c. 18-32 years old). I cannot say for certain in that regard, but I have observed and heard about it on various occasions.

Overall, it seems that there is really no one answer to the vocation question, though many (especially the older generations) would attest otherwise. Each person has a unique journey to pursue. That seems to be God's way. He is above any preconceived set of rules or formulas. Not that such things, which have been found to be generally true by our predecessors, should be cast aside. Rather, the important perspective is that such rules are guidelines at best. Guidelines, not laws. This reality then requires abundant grace and patience. It requires discernment of the Holy Spirit, and it requires perseverance. But, above all perhaps, it requires faith in YHWH. He is truly greater--His scope of power vaster--than anything we have ever perceived and ever will perceive. To God be all the glory, forever and ever. AMEN.

STAND Fall Update (Belong)

2009-11-25T11:37:00.000-08:00

Philippians 3:7-11

Please let me begin by humbly asking you to forgive six months without any news. It has been quite a journey since I last wrote in May. This stretch of winding road has continued to lead me through a wilderness of transition, and the dense fog of unemployment has further added to the uncertainty of perceiving my destination. By the grace of God, however, my faith has remained whole. My hope endures as God continues to provide; though it is not always in ways that I immediately recognize. My faith and hope have been challenged relentlessly. I have been led to faithfully cast aside the limiting and possibly unnecessary excesses of my life. I hope and seek to surrender not only myself to my Keeper, but this wilderness as well. For by my choice they are his. But what is more, I hope and seek to ceaselessly welcome him to walk beside me. Only he has the strength and wisdom by which to guide me through this landscape toward friendlier lands. I wish to lose all things for the sake of my Keeper. He is Jesus, and this is what he calls all Believers to do. I struggle against such sacrifice. I resist the need to relinquish my understanding, or my inclination toward securing my own means. Yet, I have realized that everything—my fragile dreams, my unseasoned strengths, and even my desire for community—must be placed at the feet of he who holds the future; for only he truly knows what can be done with those facets. The journey of a follower is one of sanctification: a road to share in the sufferings of the world’s only true Savior. I believe the emotional, spiritual, or even physical deaths we are called to can vary between each individual. But, as Paul writes to the church in Philippi, the heart of the matter is the same. The heart belongs to YHWH. It is the heart of Jesus: a kingdom to be extended to the whole world. It is a kingdom that dwells actively within all who would receive it. But that is only the beginning. To God be the glory. Amen.

a brief history

Early in September, not long after my third summer serving at OC’s summer training paradigms for missionaries, I was blessed to be invited to be part of the Team Leader Support (TLS) Staff for theMILL summer 2010 missions trips known as “Go”. We are sending teams to four countries next summer: Peru, Germany, Egypt, and India. I am very excited to announce that, while I am involved with the details as a whole (e.g. application processing, team leader interviewing, and team member interviewing), I am going to be specifically connected to Germany. Paired with a female TLS staff member, I will be ministering to the practical, emotional, and spiritual needs of the team leaders, who in turn are responsible for their team members. I love working with young people, particularly emerging leaders, so this is a fantastic opportunity to serve and grow. The German teams will be primarily partnering with Die Gemeinde auf dem Weg, which is a sizeable Evangelical Free Church located in Berlin.

Since the beginning of September I have been unemployed. The US Mobilization Center (USMC) for One Challenge (OC) International, where I had worked for the last year and a half, had to make some serious position cuts due to the struggling economy and its affect on non-profit organizations. Over the following six weeks I pursued a number of great job opportunities; however, none of them ultimately opened up for me. At a place of near emotional burnout one Sunday morning, I discerned the Spirit’s voice. Through this, I realized that, though I do not have no real money or skills to offer, I do have a fair amount of time. God was asking me to surrender everything and serve Him faithfully in the place of his direction. This place was theMILL office. That was the Sunday prior to the first MILL Fall Retreat weekend, in which the theme was “Belong.” From there, I simply volunteered my time and energy as much as possible to the needs of the event coordinators and MILL staff. While, as a MILL leader, I attended the first weekend, I continued to serve as much as I could during that time and on throughout the next week and following retreat weekend. Serving on the work crew (i.e. in the kitchen) the second weekend, I was once again blessed by the purity and refreshment of such service. The servant leader heart that had become somewhat dormant was thus renewed. There was and is a true sense of belonging in such service. But I want it to continue. I want the LORD to sustain me toward further service. After reflecting upon where such an opportunity existed, I realized the only place even remotely tangible at this point is theMILL office. Thus, through a series of events—and perhaps borderline aggressive initiative on my part—I have been blessed to be offered the position of Volunteer Staff in theMILL core leadership. Praise God.

What does being on Volunteer Staff at theMILL office mean? Well, I will explain what it means thus far; though part of its beauty is that it can continue to evolve. My role as a MILL leader (i.e. small group leader for STAND), as well as TLS staff member, will not really change. However, with regard to theMILL summer 2010 missions, I have essentially taken on the role of being the assistant to theMILL Director of Missions. I am additionally blessed with the opportunity to join theMILL core leadership staff meetings, as well as New Life Church all-staff meetings. The chance to observe and learn in a direct church environment has been on my heart for quite some time now. I am very thankful to be offered such a chance. Again, there will be other facets to my Volunteer Staff role, such as general help around the office and possibly even some content editing of certain website material. But, overall, serving theMILL staff in any way possible is the foundation.

In addition to this, I am still connected to OC in a few ways. Aside from history, and continued relationship with some of its members (thank you so much, Spaulding family), I am on call to fill in at the USMC front desk. I have also been recently offered the chance to be involved in initial research for a relatively new OC vision called the “Greenhouse Project.”

The current vision of the “Greenhouse Project” is that of apprenticeship for the millennial generation (i.e. ages 18-34 years old). Instead of looking for and expecting young missionary candidates to possess certain characteristics and skills before acceptance, the fundamental idea of the “Greenhouse Project” is to instead take an active role in their personal, familial, and Kingdom development before deployment. The idea is for OC to provide a two-year in-house training apprenticeship, specifically designed for college graduates, with the hope of grafting them into the values and global mission of the OC family. This approach would ultimately be designed to train and prepare these young future missionaries to thereafter have the opportunity to strategically join an OC field team. Thus, through community, realized through learning and growing together in a daily environment, the “Greenhouse Project” intends to take college graduates sensing God’s call in their lives for overseas ministry into an environment rich with the resources they need for faster holistic growth.

I would love to see OC and theMILL (and other churches/ministries) ultimately partnering in this endeavor to better reach the millennial generation and connect it not only spiritually, but practically to the global Kingdom. This is the heart of STAND. I am very excited about the possibilities, and the deepened perspective and vision that will likely ensue from being in any way part of the development of the OC “Greenhouse Project.”

Hopefully all this information has provided you with a helpful broad picture of where my life and ministry is at the moment. Please, do not hesitate to contact me. I welcome your questions, and the chance to hear more about your own lives.

How is this all going to work practically? I thoroughly believe that the Spirit of YHWH is at work in all of these opportunities. They are areas of service that have and can hopefully continue to employ my time. Through them, God has renewed not only my sense of purpose for His Kingdom, but my sense of belonging as well. I am, therefore, trying to trust that my practical needs (i.e. living costs) will be met by His means and timing. This may apply specifically to a renewed effort at support raising. The essence of support raising is that I cannot do this on my own; but, rather, that I also need the spiritual and financial support of community, which includes those of my family, life history, and overall Believers. For as heirs of the Kingdom of YHWH, we are all one community. So, I humbly ask once again that you pray for me and what the Spirit is working through me in the experience. I humbly ask that you prayerfully consider whether God is stirring your heart to give even a one-time gift. (Please contact me for more information in this regard). STAND is not about me. It is about surrendering everything to God so that by His glory young people might be shown His Kingdom around the world; especially, in my heart, the United States and Europe. I really do not know what the next months will hold. But I trust that in the end God will receive all the glory. Amen.

Some Praises:
1. At the beginning of October, I moved into a house with my good friend Dave Duguid near downtown Colorado Springs. This living scenario has been a sincere blessing to me not only communally, but financially as well.
2. The opportunity to work for and be part of theMILL staff and missions, as well as the OC “Greenhouse Project.”

Some Prayer Requests:
1. Please pray that the technical/financial aspects (i.e. support raising) for my job at theMILL will come into place as soon as possible. This should be determined by the New Life Church Accounting Department soon after Thanksgiving break. In the meantime, my support is still being managed by OC. Please also pray that God stirs peoples’ hearts to PRAY and GIVE.
2. theMILL STAND small group I facilitate is going through a visionary jump-start. Please pray for wisdom for all five of us.
3. FETCH, the high school small group I have been co-leading for 2½ years, will be coming to an end this Christmas. It has been a great journey with these students. Please pray that the discussions we have had, and the relationships built, have served to deepen the students’ passion for pursuing the Truth, who is the Word of God, Jesus Christ.

The Limits of Theology

2009-11-19T15:25:00.000-08:00

Glenn Packiam's recent post, "Theology Is An Aquarium" briefly discusses a rather brilliant and somewhat reassuring perspective on knowing God. "An aquarium [like theology] recreates the oceanic environment and helps us see things we wouldn't otherwise see . . . . [and yet] There is more to the ocean than what an aquarium can show; there is more to God than what theology can tell." To God be the glory, forever and ever. AMEN.

A Thought on Art and Globalization

2009-11-09T17:08:00.000-08:00

Please read Glenn Packiam's article "Rethinking Every Tribe and Tongue" for some insightful early musings with regards to a discussion of art and globalization.

I particularly appreciate the balance of his perspective, exemplified when he writes, "Maybe globalization itself isn't always the cultural steamroller that ruins indigenous art; maybe sometimes it's a swelling river, absorbing as tributaries the diverse elements of each particular culture." I agree with the essence of his metaphor, and am interested in delving a bit deeper into some of its implications.

What does it mean to grow up?

2009-10-27T15:33:00.000-07:00

(A Response to the article and comments related to “Growing Up is Harder than Ever”)

It strikes me that in responding to the question “What does growing up mean?” few have offered a Biblical response.

Now, I must state that I do not have any real answers. I have been wrestling with this topic by another name quite a bit already, especially as I approach two months of unemployment followed by period of heavy job hunting. As anyone who has ever been unemployed may attest to, such a time is truly challenging. I believe it challenges men especially, as they are commonly pressed by our culture to pursue certain ideas of success. But that is yet another topic of discussion.

What does the life of Jesus teach us? In My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers writes that the will of God is to pursue Christ-likeness. The Gospels seem less concerned with any cultural “coming of age”, but rather a maturation of our relationship with the Triune God and with our neighbors. The Word teaches that one of the ultimate truths, in fact the Truth, is Love. The mysterious triune nature of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit is referred to by many names. YHWH could essentially be described in infinite ways. But one of the primary themes of the Gospel, of Christ’s passion—of the entire Scriptures—is that of Love. “God is Love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.” (I John 4:16). Thus, Christ is Love, and that is what we are called to pursue. It is the source of our hope. It is the source of our purpose in this world: to join the Spirit’s work in spreading the Kingdom of God to every heart in order that it might believe and receive Christ’s love.

But the pursuit is not limited to our relationship with God. It must be extended to those around us. “Love your neighbor as yourself” (see Leviticus 19:18; Matthew 19:19; Romans 13:10; James 2:8) or “Love one another” (John 13:34-35; I Thessalonians 4:9; I Peter 1:22; I John 3:11, 23, 4:11) are calls saturating the Scriptures. From Love grows the fruit of the Kingdom. From Love the world was forgiven and offered the hope of redemption, the promise of eternal salvation from the chaos of sin. Love is our only true hope for peace. While we cannot fully realize Love in this fallen world, we can hope for its fuller reality when Jesus returns to assert his kingship.

I for one am humbled by this marvelous gift from YHWH. I then begin to wonder whether growing up is about the lifelong surrendering of our lives to the Kingdom of God as Jesus did. There surely cannot be a point where we have actually grown up; for, as another commenter notes, such a point would presume a lack of needing to continue growing. Knowing our frail natures, growing up must be a lifelong process; or even cycle of reexamining Truth with new or deeper insight. It is like the last refrain of Sleeping at Last’s song “Birdcage Religion” from their album Storyboards, which pleads “please be a broken record for me.” Growing up must have something to do with faith, with a peace found in the confidence of YHWH’s provision for our every need. That no matter how much we wrinkle and tear our clothes, His Love will “soften these edges and straighten out my tie/ and help me remember/ the hope that I have compromised” (Sleeping at Last, “Birdcage Religion”).

Growing up is surely a multi-faceted experience. If Love is at its core, it must not only have something to do with our connection with God, but, again, with the service and sacrifice we offer through the Holy Spirit’s stirring, Christ’s strength, and God’s faithfulness to others. Then again, perhaps growing up is not the facet we should be dwelling too long on. Perhaps it is so relative today that it is rendered rather unhelpful to discuss. I am not sure. There is probably much more to be said.

Nonetheless, if growing up is any of these things then we will be busy for quite some time . . . until the only one who truly “grew up” returns to make things right once and for all. To God be the glory, forever and ever. AMEN.

A Family of Meaning

2009-10-26T10:18:00.000-07:00

We are all in some way like orphans. Born into a world of chaos, which is beset by a tempest who seeks to cloud all creation from the source of light and warmth, we can become overwhelmed by a sense of utter loneliness. We can come to feel separated from a “family of meaning;” the abuse and abandonment of such a sinful world even sometimes leaving us with a fragile trust in humanity. We orphans must come to recognize this sheer frailty. We must soon realize that, if we are to escape the chaos, we must find a hope to embrace. For in hope, there is light. In hope, there is warmth.

Above every storm, the light shines forth.

Forgiveness is the beginning. It is the foundation in which the seed of Hope can be fostered. The Spirit of Truth plants it freely in the hearts of those who humbly receive it. Yet, that is only the beginning. The source of such redemption, like an invisible Tree of Life waiting to be found, must be sought.

But, how can we find the tree? How can it be measured?

The beautiful freedom of Forgiveness, perhaps, is that no tangible value can bind it. For who can truly measure the Love that offers such a gift? Love is immortal. It has many names. It is the Tree of Life.

But, it also has a Keeper. He comes from a line of kings, and has also been known by many names. He gives himself wholly to the Tree’s care. In truth, he nourished the tree with his own blood. His blood is its life. His blood is the Love that makes it grow. His Love offers humanity forgiveness—a rich foundation promising eternal inheritance—as it is held in the Keeper’s palm of peace. His love helps the seed of Hope to grow. It grows in the hearts of those who accept it—hearts that were once empty dying kingdoms in this world, but are now filled with his Kingdom of Life.

Though such orphans are now heirs—no longer slaves, but free men and women—the world itself is not yet a place governed by Peace. The world is still dictated in part by chaos. Its ruler plagues the world with violence.

Yet, there is great significance in even one life saved. For the Kingdom of Peace is waging an invisible war against the kingdom of chaos. It needs every freed son and daughter to take part. The end is already written; it is the merely final moment that remains unknown.

Therefore, the heirs of the Kingdom of Peace are called to strive against the tempest who seeks to consume the world with chaos. The heirs are to help their companions when they fall down, and to free the lingering orphans. Freedom comes at a great cost, but hope in the Kingdom of Peace must endure. It must protect itself with the Shield of Faith. It must win new ground as more than a conqueror, which can only be achieved by actively wielding the Sword of Truth.

The Sword of Truth is Hope. Hope is the seed planted in Forgiveness, from which Love is the source of its maturation. Love is Peace. Peace is the promise of a kingdom: the Kingdom of Heaven. It is a kingdom of Peace, Love, and Hope. It is the Kingdom of YHWH. He is those truths, and those truths are Him. He is the Spirit, and He is the Keeper.

YHWH is everything. He is our Family of Meaning.

Proof is eternity. AMEN.

That family, however, must extend beyond the immortal invisible to include the mortal visible. In the beginning, YHWH walked alongside Adam in a world unmarred by corruption. Yet, the God of the universe still proclaimed that all was not good in the world. Though mankind enjoyed pure unhindered relationship with God, the great “I am” asserted that something was missing. The need for both spiritual community and physical community is perhaps one of the great mysteries stemming from creation. But it is the truth. It is written in the Word. From that truth so much has come to pass, including the ultimate community of YHWH: His gathering, the Church. Though surely blemished by the frailty of humanity, the Church is an important place for heirs to find and pursue deeper belonging. But their sense of belonging must transcends church walls if the heirs are to help liberate the lost orphans of the world.

Vocation, therefore, is a thread of the intangible and tangible tapestry of needs. Yet, vocation can be a difficult road to discover for some. The challenges take various forms. Some hardships are allowed by YHWH to strengthen His heirs. Yet, some are a result of the weaknesses that remain within their hearts. Some hindrances are even deliberate attacks waged by the enemy. The prince of chaos seeks tirelessly to hold his darkness over all life, to hinder the efforts of the Kingdom of Peace. What can be done in the face of such storms?

The heirs must endure. They must trust in the Family of Meaning. They must trust in the Final Victory.

But, how is that possible? The Keeper of Hope not only offers Forgiveness, but also Redemption. In Redemption there is Hope. To grow, however, it must take root within the hearts of both the individual and the community. Only then can they find the strength to persevere: to stand when members stumble and fall. Only then can they continue fighting when it seems that all is lost.

For even in the darkest of places, there is still light.

Proof is eternity. AMEN.

Where the Wild Things Are

2009-10-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

I found Tyler Huckabee's article "We're All Wild Things" to be a very insightful review of the book that was read to so many children who are now in their twenties.

Reading his own musings leads me to be even more excited about the film, which looks to be very visually engaging and musically stirring. It also makes me want to re-read the book, which I remember from my childhood. Hopefully the film is as much a treat as everyone anticipates.

(Pictures from Aceshowbiz.com)

further reflections on Love

2009-09-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

In my own writing I have been reflecting extensively on Love (especially as it pertains to the source of Love, which is YHWH). Thus, Glen Packiam's recent blog "Is God Angry?" offers some fantastic additional insight for those sharing in such ponderings. God bless.

Quantitative vs. Qualitative

2009-08-24T13:08:00.000-07:00

Pastor Glenn Packiam's recent blog, "When Bottom-Line Thinking Ruins Everything" begins to express and dissect certain elements that have been churning in my thoughts lately, especially as they relate to the missions and arts worlds. I believe the broader issue is connected to the discussion of a quantitative vs. qualitative value framework. Such a framework, or worldview perhaps, applies not only to vocation, but to lifestyle and relationships as well. Naturally, both frameworks need to be present to some degree. But it seems that often one is definitively predominant over another in a certain vocational setting or individual's life.

An initial question then is: "Which framework takes precedence in your life?" It is a serious topic, and one that should not be mulled over lightly or passed with a furtive glance. Yet, I wonder if the question is one that can really be answered quickly (if one is to be truly honest in the matter). To answer, it seems one would need to assess not only his or her personal views, but his or her actions as well--to see if they correlate. Peer input is also important. Hopefully consistency is evident, for such a union of words and deeds demonstrates integrity. And is not a life of integrity synonymous with the pursuit of holiness (i.e. the pursuit of Christ-likeness)?

Summer Photography

2009-08-04T15:46:00.000-07:00

I have uploaded new Colorado photography on my RedBubble website. I hope you enjoy viewing some of the scenes I witnessed throughout this summer while working up at Bear Trap Ranch.

Love: A Timeless Endeavor

2009-06-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

Brad Bellmore's article "Why is the Church so Segregated?" is very thoughtful on the issue of church integration in the United States.

I have read a few books delving into racial justice, including a biography of Martin Luther King Jr. and even (at an international scale) Ghandi's Hind Swaraj . I agree with one commentator of the aforementioned article that the racial discussion is a bit worn out and even now possibly a catalyst for further racist thinking. The term "race" has in itself become a somewhat divisive term. Henceforth, I agree with those who suggest that citizens of the United States ultimately (while not being "color blind") see each other as fellow children of God instead of some variety of "_______ American". Those who follow Jesus must recognize that the Kingdom of YHWH transcends physical borders. I do believe, however, that God intended for there to be diversity across the world. It makes life so much more interesting and dynamic . . . and humbling.

I have wondered whether such terms as "_______ American" are limiting and unhelpful. "African American," for example, or the somewhat more vulger limitation of "black," merely implies skin color. Yet, Africa is a large continent full of its own vast cultural diversity (not to mention a fair amount of European and Middle Eastern cultural roots). Similarily, "Caucasian" is an unhelpful term in also merely indicating skin color. It is vaguer than the term "African American" in its meaning. Caucasian generally implies European origin; however, Europe itself is an equally diverse continent. The same conclusions can be applied to the broad regions of Asia, Central and South America (generally termed Latin America with a number of other "general" word descriptions), as well as the Pacific region. And I do not think I have ever heard anything like "Middle Eastern American". Usually immigrants from the Middle East define themselves as Iranians or Afghans, etc. I think it is most helpful, if identifying your cultural roots is necessary in the conversation or relationship, to be specific. That applies to Americans as well. If someone is American, despite having ethnic Nigerian, Russian, Israeli, Guatemalan, Philippino, Korean, English, German, etc. roots—all of which may be important facets of his or her heritage—yet he or she has been born and raised in the United States, he or she is an American. Simply American. Not "Nigerian American" or "Russian American", just American. The United States was founded on principles of vast diversity. Though surely not practiced anywhere near perfection from the beginning (e.g. the oppression of many Native American tribes; though, even that conflict went both ways), it is something unique—a strange social experiment perhaps. It is a cultural melting pot of sorts, rooted in countless nations of the world. In some sense, the United States is built on principles that anyone can live and progress no matter what cultural or social heritage they have come from. There is something remarkable, though not necessarily fully beneficial (e.g. losing one’s cultural identity: another topic for another time), in such openness.

I do occasionally wonder what it really means to be American, but that is also a subject for another time. Nonetheless, many foreign populations themselves (e.g. Germany) find it difficult to truly identify what makes them as Germans unique in the world. Perhaps the era of strong nationalism and even patriotism is fading with such evident growing globalization and internationalization (greatly rooted in economics—e.g. money: another source of disunity).

However, the most separating factor of late seems to be religious affiliation. It seems the world has circled back to its ancient social sins. I pray that the incredibly oppressive violent so-called religious wars of the past do not repeat themselves. Some seem to have never truly ended as one examines the tribal wars of the world. Perhaps all have never really ended. They merely have shifted to more discrete methods on occasion like social division.

Overall, I find inspiration in the aforementioned article commentator’s call to exceed such diverse and numerous barriers between people, and remember that above all we share something much greater: humanity. Aside from that, and perhaps gender, each person is completely unique from the next. While there is surely academic merit (i.e. for the purposes of social study) in making some cultural generalizations, let us not forget that the only way to truly know someone different than ourselves (i.e. everyone) we must take the time to build relationship with them, to hear their story and live life with them in some form of community. This can only be hoped to achieve through Love, who is Jesus Christ. Love is the foremost call of humanity, from whence other issues (e.g. salvation) can be later addressed. In some sense, I believe all else grows from Love, like the Tree of Life lost after Adam and Eve’s banishment from the Eden. But perhaps it is no longer lost, but has been offered anew to every heart through the atoning work of the Gospel, which is the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. It is surely more complicated than that, but I am more interested in foundational Truth at this point. Such Truth has been difficult enough to practice.

I do not have practical solutions or answers. I leave that to greater minds. Yet, I conclude with this question: Without Love for our neighbor, for our fellow human being, are we not then reducing ourselves to a mere scattering of islands in a endless ocean? Are we not then utterly alone in the world without hope of redemption and reconciliation? We have been shown and given real Love, which is the Holy Spirit, through the Word of God, who is Jesus. It is a timeless endeavor, but one that we must nonetheless pursue. It is the pursuit of holiness, of sanctification. It is the pursuit of YHWH.

“Love is not against the law.” (Derek Webb)

A Thought on Worship

2009-06-04T13:19:00.000-07:00

Glenn Packiam offers some great insights on worship leading in "What I wish I knew about worship leading . . . 10 Years Ago".

Quote of the Day

2009-06-03T14:38:00.000-07:00

"As we begin to acknowledge our own inner shadow, we become more tolerant of the shadow in others." (Walter Wink, Enganging the Powers)

What is the relationship between the Kingdom of God and Art?

2009-05-27T12:11:00.001-07:00

As an artist and a disciple of the Triune God, this question is very important to me. Thus, "New Eyes" is my first formalized (and lengthy) reflection on the matter. I wrote it as a sort of conversation: a dialogue with my own experiences and thoughts. Yet, it is a dialogue with the Holy Spirit and the Word of God who is Jesus. It is a dialogue with great minds--artists in their own right--such as Joseph Ratzinger (Pope John Paul II), Madeleine L'Engle, Robert Frost, J.R.R. Tolkien, and others. And it is one that I am anxious to continue . . . though I may never fully complete it.

Photography

2009-05-19T10:12:00.000-07:00

For those interested, I have recently posted some new photos on RedBubble for your enjoyment and inspiration.

Eastern Face of Tower of Babel, North Gateway Rock, Garden of the Gods, Colorado Springs, CO 2009

Is the Church Dead?

2009-05-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

Glenn Packiam's "There are No Dead Churches" is a really wise and challenging reminder. Please read and begin to ponder it with me.

"The musical equivalent of microwaving an expensive steak."

2009-05-04T14:24:00.000-07:00

Seth Hurd's article "How the iPod is Hurting Music" is very interesting. I heartily agree that this cultural shift is damaging the essence of an artist's album. (e.g. Damien Rice's album "O", or Derek Webb's "The Ringing Bell", would not be as beautiful or meaningful if the songs were just listened to haphazardly. If an album is like a story, the songs are like its chapters. Would you just read a few choice chapters in a book?)

STAND: Renewed Life

2009-04-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

I hope you are finding peace and fulfillment each day; that refreshing rain falls not only on dry lands but on any who feel they have dry hearts. May you find peace in seeing, and never forgetting, the significance of life beginning to blossom all around.

I have personally been blessed during this recent season of Lent, Good Friday, and Easter. In general, it offered me a sound time of humbled reflection, which continues on to this day in the form of a reinvigorated hunger for the Word. Amidst difficult and trying times, I am reminded by Pastor Brady Boyd of New Life Church how Jesus came not to rescue us from our troubles, but to give us the power to walk through them. Praise God. Yet, the story did not end with his resurrection from death. Before he ascending to the throne of his Father—the Sovereign—Jesus reminds his disciples that another will come: the Spirit that brought him back to life—the Spirit of God, of Jesus. This permanent gift, having only come in the previous history of Israel temporarily, offers life to the Kingdom of YHWH. The Spirit is active continuous life. No matter how dark the valley of the soul, how difficult the path of this world, it is life in the heart of every Believer. This is the Truth, the result of the Messiah’s Love-guided sacrifice. This is hope.

So, may you find peace. May you find rest in remembering that each day the living Holy Spirit carries you forward. May you discover the strength to trust in the power of YHWH despite uncertain roads ahead. And may you never forget that the greatest Truth offered from Heaven is Love. Jesus said, “By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another” (John 13:35, NIV).

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Praise Notes

The MILL (college/twenty-something ministry at New Life Church) small group STAND, which I facilitate, has been a place of deep connection and committed prayer for one another. A new friend, Chris Hoffman, has joined the weekly STAND gathering. His heart for Truth and for community through prayer has been an added blessing to Alex Frieg, Dave Duguid, and myself. Similarly, the high school film-studies small group that I co-lead has been progressing well with thoughtful discussions and fun community.

I feel richly blessed to have already connected with a number of you here in Colorado Springs or over the phone. I look forward to contacting more of you, to hear what God is doing in your life. Please feel free to call me either at (719) 592-9292x168 during the day, or at (719) 393-3445 during the evening, or to write me an email (joshuagrubb@oci.org) or reach me via skype (coyote03 or grubbusiness).

Prayer Requests

The OC International personnel department, here at the US Mobilization Center (USMC) in Colorado Springs, is preparing for its big summer training paradigm Lifeworkx (Internship). I am very excited to be part of this great four-week “life-on-life” community up at Bear Trap Ranch once more. I will continue to serve OC director Steve Aldrich as well as work with the youth of the following camp for furloughing missionaries (PEP: Personnel Enrichment Program). Please pray that the details come together, and that Lifeworkx has enough funding as well as one additional mentor couple for the missionary interns.

I felt incredibly blessed by a number of financial gifts last month. For all who faithfully gave, thank you very much for your active support. My support, however, is still at about 6-7%. I need to raise about $2200/month or about $26,400 for one year, or at least $13,200 for a half year. This amount is intended to cover all living costs (including housing, insurance, food, etc.), as well as necessary travel to visit churches and missionaries throughout Europe. I feel the Spirit continuing to affirm that this September (2009) needs to be the departure date, but that may depend on the amount of financial support I have raised. I understand that economic times are trying, but must affirm how significant even one-time gifts can be (e.g. $10 or $25). While monthly commitments are critical, no gift is too small. Please prayerfully consider partnering with me in this mission.

Again, I perceive that YHWH is leading me to spend a half year or year in Europe to gain a general understanding of current situation of the Kingdom of God there (i.e. churches, missions, ministries, etc.)—its successes, hopes, and needs—as well as a vision for where and how I can be more specifically involved in the long term. Thank you for your prayers, and for your support. I look forward in humble confidence to how YHWH will continue to work through the Truth of His Word (Jesus) and the power of His Spirit. Amen.

In Him, JOSHUA GRUBB

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We have overcome by the blood of the Lamb

2009-04-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

Please take a couple minutes to read my friend Dave Duguid's article "An Extraordinary Life". It is full of wise insight and sound words. Thank you, my friend, for your testimony.

God bless everyone as you continue to press on in the hope of life within your hearts: the Holy Spirit given freely following Jesus' death, resurrection, and ascension. AMEN.

Marriage?

2009-03-31T15:04:00.000-07:00

Please take a few minutes to read Chris Whitworth's "I Do?", which explores some noteworthy ideas related to marriage today. I am interested in hearing some of your thoughts.

Thoughts from Robert Frost

2009-03-24T10:13:00.000-07:00

"Two fears should follow us through life. There is the fear that we shan’t prove worthy in the eyes of someone who knows us at least as well as we know ourselves. That is the fear of God. And there is the fear of Man—the fear that men won’t understand us and we shall be cut off from them” (Introduction to King Jasper).

"What’s worth living for is worthy dying for. What’s worth succeeding in is worth failing in” ("On Emerson").

(Both selections can be found within Selected Prose of Robert Frost, edited by Hyde Cox and Edward Connery Lathem)

STAND March Update

2009-03-17T11:12:00.000-07:00

Last week I had the pleasure of a visit from my friend Ramona Sebald. She is a friend dating back to seventh grade, when my family first moved to Germany and attended her church Die Gemeinde die Öffnen Tür. She is also a fellow STAND facilitator. Interestingly, her youth pastor is a good friend of the MILL pastor at New Life Church here in Colorado Springs. There were thus two solid connections waiting for her in Colorado. It was a blessing to have her see my little world, and especially for her to witness the inspiring testimony of New Life Church and the MILL. Overall, I believe God opened doors in this community for both of us through her presence and the relationships formed. Thank you for your friendship, Ramona.

Below: with Ramona at the Garden of the Gods, Colorado Springs,CO
Thank you so much to those of you praying for and with me, and to those who have given one-time gifts or monthly support. Without your partnership, my vision for serving in Europe would be incomplete.

There is quite a way to go on the road of support discovery before I can begin serving in Europe. I still pray that my departure will be in September 2009, but such a timetable will require much more monthly financial support. I need to raise at least $2200 per month. This amount will cover housing and living expenses, including food, communication, and insurance; as well as legal and ministry costs (e.g. OC headquarter costs, visa, travel to meet with OC field teams and leadership, and taxes). One-time gifts are also very appreciated and helpful as they meet my Outgoing Expense (O.E.) costs (e.g. moving to Europe, including international airfare). Note that the cost of living and travel in Europe is generally more expensive than the United States.

Monthly support is currently about 5% fulfilled. Please understand that I will not be able to leave and begin service in Europe until this percentage is nearly at 100%. If you are sensing God’s call to partner with me in this way, now is the time to begin. And praise God that my O.E. is about 95% fulfilled. If you wish to know more details, please contact me.

God continues to mold my life during this season. It is a difficult road, sometimes marked by shallow doubt; but amidst the challenges and joys the Spirit provides peace and rooted confidence. It has been a stretching period of Lent; yet as we all approach the time commemorating Jesus’ death and resurrection, know that the LORD will provide for the needs of His people, whether we truly perceive those needs or not.

Again, thank you for being part of this journey. While there are many miles still to traverse, I know that through them Truth will be further revealed to my heart and mind. May it be the same for you in the times ahead.

PRAYER REQUESTS
Pray for my physical and emotional strength to press forward while withstanding the lies of the enemy.
Pray for God to move in the hearts of the people who need to be part of this pilgrimage.

“Because God’s hand is apparent, I write.” (Jeff Nelson, OC Missionary)

To Pause at a Simple Field

2009-03-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

There are good thoughts within Ed Gungor's "The Stem Cell Question" and the related comments/discussion. I believe the root issue of the article's small digital debate are important to consider as it relates to a wide variety of relevant situations and practices.

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On another note, I found Glenn Packiam's "What a Pastoral Sabbatical Means to Me" very interesting and compelling. I wonder if everyone should take some time like this at least once a year. Too often, especially in the West, our focus--if not almost our idol--is tangible progress, which generally seems partially defined by success, which is partially defined by quantitative value (partially defined by money). I do believe that our lives should always be progressing, but ultimately only as it relates to pursuing Christ and community.

Amidst a long run this last Saturday, I took an unknown amount of time (I was not keeping track) to just sit and enjoy creation. I sat amidst a dry grassy field warmed by the sun and gently touched by the pleasant spring breeze. I sat at the edge of a white cliff, where the field abruptly dropped around thirty feet into a trickling stream. The stream below curved sharply around a small field of tall grass and naked grey trees. Beyond the field, the terrain ascended with a quiet railroad track buckled around its waist. Further still, the hills rose until they were taken up by the mantle of the mountains. Crowned with white snow, Pike's Peak stood as a symbol of God's majestic eye over this region. Such a time of peaceful reflection was a blessing. It not only offered peace, drawing the rampantly muddled and even poisonous thoughts from my mind, but encouraged me with its simple brilliance.

It is something I have not done enough lately: stopping for a moment amidst life's winding road. Having run long distances for more than half my life, a venture requiring great discipline; I wonder whether there is an equal need for discipline to sometimes stop running and be still. We can become so driven, enamored even, by the potential of tomorrow, by our goals or those of others, that we forget the pearl hidden in the common field. God gave me a great gift on this past Sabbath day. To pause at a simple field can be as reverent an act as bowing at the alter of an ancient cathedral. I will surely return.

Thought on Leadership

2009-03-13T11:03:00.000-07:00

For some good thoughts on Kingdom leadership, please read Aaron Stern's "Leaders have Fewer Rights". The way of the cross, of Jesus, is a road of self-denial. God bless.

An Additional Thought on Liturgy

2009-03-04T08:19:00.000-08:00

For a thoughtful follow-up of his previous post on liturgy, please read Glenn Packiam's "In Defense of Tradition".

Along with other recent and current readings, I am increasingly seeing the value and need for what I will call a "liturgical renaissance." In other words, it seems that at least Western churches generally need a renewed understanding of the wholeness of liturgy, that the rich soil of tradition and the flowing water of Spirit-inspired creativity would allow the roots of the Church (i.e. the Kingdom of God) to further grow and develop.

Darkness cannot drive out darkness . . .

2009-03-03T10:58:00.000-08:00

I have noticed over the years a trend, and below are some initial thoughts in response. The trend is that in film it seems that a majority of protagonists are becoming increasingly antiheroic. Merriam-Webster dictionary defines an antihero as “a protagonist or notable figure who is conspicuously lacking in heroic qualities.” Contrarily, a hero is “a mythological or legendary figure often of divine descent endowed with great strength or ability; an illustrious warrior; a man or woman admired for his or her achievements and noble qualities; or one that shows great courage.” The origin of the antihero is seemingly debatable in literature; however, there is no doubt that he or she has become the forefront as the hero of modern narratives. Or should I say post-modern narratives? Post-modernism has certainly influenced this development, as it is in part deemed to be a rejection of traditional values. Much of post-modernism’s disillusionment is said to be rooted in the nature of World War II and the recent Nuclear Age. Overall, antiheroes are marked by an increasingly complex morality, usually recognizable by their lack of self-identity and motivation. Wikipedia states that

It has been argued that the continuing popularity of the antihero in modern literature and popular culture may be based on the recognition that a person is fraught with human frailties, unlike the archetypes of the white-hatted cowboy and the noble warrior, and is therefore more accessible to readers and viewers . . . In the postmodern era, traditionally heroic qualities, akin to the classic ‘knight in shinning armor’ type, have given way to the ‘gritty truth’ of life, and authority in general is being questioned. The brooding vigilante or ‘noble criminal’ archetype . . . is slowly becoming part of the popular conception of heroic valor rather than being characteristics that are deemed un-heroic.

An approaching film, “The Watchmen”, based on the 1980’s Hugo-award winning graphic novel by Alan Moore (writer) and Dave Gibbons (illustrator), is probably the best example of this development. Another recent example could be the character of Bruce Wayne (a.k.a. Batman) in the two recent Christopher Nolan films. In general, antiheroes follow pulp fiction and film noir narratives, a response to the traditional comic book heroes of the early war years (e.g. Superman). But they have certainly extended into other arenas as well. An example of what seems to be the most morally detrimental expression of this is the game series “Grand Theft Auto.”

I wonder whether this extensive reach is healthy for our culture; especially the younger male generation who often consciously or subconsciously includes such heroes in their moral maturation. When I was growing up, at least, fictional heroes played a significant role in not only me and my friends play, but also our worldview. Most antiheroes, fortunately, seem to be contained within more mature films (whether the children’s’ parents let them seem such films is another matter entirely). Perhaps the younger generation only really becomes aware of the antihero when it comes to mid to late adolescence. There are likely more in-depth sociological studies on this topic.

Nonetheless, I sense an increasingly nihilistic worldview attached to antiheroes. In many cases a sense of hope in good has been removed—hope, namely, in something beyond or greater than society. The primary example of this for me is the presentation of spirituality. In films such as “Constantine” or “The Exorcism of Emily Rose” there seems to be an incredible lack of a strong realm of good to counter the clearly-presented realm of evil. The battle is usually between humanity and evil. Yet, as humanity is inherently flawed, it appears to be a battle between a greater evil and a lesser evil. Naturally, not all art forms demonstrate this trend, but it does seem to be on the rise.

Justice is still a societal value, but a festering lack of confidence and faith in the government has definitely led to a search for hope elsewhere. With that said, I think that while there is greater appeal in antiheroes, society is still looking for true heroism. I think Nolan’s recent Batman films walk brilliantly along this line. In my opinion “The Dark Knight” is the greatest antihero film ever created, for it challenges the balance of heroism and anitheroism (e.g. Bruce Wayne’s internal struggle in how far he must go, i.e. whether he must break his one rule, to defeat the Joker). On the other hand films such as “The Lord of the Rings” are refreshing in their triumphant hope in greater power (e.g. Gandalf, or in the book Tom Bombadil), honor (e.g. Aragorn, Gimli, Legolas, etc.), and innocence (e.g. Bilbo, Frodo, and especially Samwise Gamgee). The hobbits are unlikely heroes, another popular hero form; yet, even Tolkien recognized the powerful influence of an antihero in the character of Smeagol. I believe antiheroes are necessary and critical for this era. Some antiheroes allow us to identify with their struggles and to even find hope that they have overcome. But there is definitely a balance needed: a line between struggling against the enemy within—but ultimately resisting and conquering it—and succumbing to that evil voice.

Thinking of the latter, there are numerous recent film antiheroes who resort to incredible violence in the name of justice (e.g. “The Punisher”). A quote by the character Aereon from the film “The Chronicles of Riddick” offers another example of a potential shift to unbalance in its narrative:

If we are to survive, a new balance must be found. In normal times, evil would be fought by good. But in times like these, well, it should be fought by another kind of evil.

Is this true? Individuals, human and flawed, can be inspiring models of heroism. But overall I believe they must not take that power and irresponsibly to freely define their own moral action. This, in part, is the battle against extreme post-modernism. For uncompromised hope and victory, there must be a power greater than the fallible antiheroes including even national authorities. The only steadfast answer is God, the lord of creation. Though I will not delve into discussing it further now, one should note how Jesus offers a stark contrast in heroism to the common world hero. In his crucifixion, Jesus was a lion in sheep’s clothing. He fought injustice with the sword of his Word, against human sin nature and against the prince of the world (i.e. Lucifer). Only in this is the world’s search for hope satisfied. It is hope in divine justice and judgment, in grace and provision. It is hope in Love.

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness,” Martin Luther King, Jr. proclaimed, “only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”

AMEN.

What is Church?

2009-03-02T12:47:00.000-08:00

I just finished reading Ian Morgan Cron's Chasing Francis: A Pilgrim's Tale, which indirectly examines the life Saint Francis of Assisi. I am also currently reading Total Church: A Radical Reshaping around Gospel and Community by Tim Chester and Steve Timmis. Their focus so far seems to be the idea that church is mission, and mission is church--all within the framework of very deliberate community. These, among a few other readings, sermons, and general influences have brought me to take some more time to specifically think of the nature of church. I began by asking myself "What is church?", but then realized that the greater question must be "How does God define church?" What has been revealed by the Word (i.e. Jesus)? I have only begun to answer this question, and will delve a little deeper with readings and discussions.

Overall, however, I currently am inclined to think of the term "church" as no longer relevant or useful (much like the term "Christian"). I am more apt to talk in terms of the Kingdom of God (or the Kingdom of Heaven). This is the language that saturates the Biblical narrative. Yet, is the Kingdom synonymous with the Church, or is there a difference? Looking at the church as it is practiced today, and trying to be a good scholar, I would be initially inclined to answer with a "yes" and a "no." But I do not believe I am equipped to discuss that at length here.

As I begin to seek more specified answers to the aforementioned questions, I came across Andrew Schwab's article "Church Shopping", which seems to offer some good early thoughts. As always, it is interesting to read some of the comments. The emerging generation certainly has an interesting perspective. It is refreshing to have some international voices, as well as elder wisdom, in the mix.

Finally, I have come across the idea of the culture moving toward "post-Evangelicalism," and wonder if there is some validity in this development. But it also begs the question: "What truly is Evangelicalism?" Another question to note as the journey continues. In light of this, and the creative musings of Ian Morgan Cron, I appreciate the closing words of Richard Stuart (a commentator on Schwab's article):

What finally put a stop to this in my life was leaving evangelicalism altogether. I went to a church that, instead of having a special service for every demographic slice, has one liturgy for everyone, with young and old and in-between with all their flaws and foibles, that actually gets to know people as they are without giving up on telling them what they can become, that has never sacrificed doctrine for popularity, and whose every last act in its services is rich with symbolism and meaning, if only you look for it.

I joined the Eastern Orthodox Church. You know, the one that the Catholics split off from. With the funky languages, the icons, the "dead rituals" as evangelicals call them. But they're not dead, not at all, unless you want them to be. It's not a perfect church, you'll never find a perfect church. But it gets the essence of Christianity, the daily struggle to grow closer to Christ and one another. They're all reviled as old, out of touch, and all the other insults that are wrapped up in the term "ritualistic." But I would really, really encourage you (and all the other commenters here) to just go to one one Sunday, see for yourself.

(Note: for another good thought on traditional liturgy, see my previous blog "A Thought on Liturgy")

Isaiah 58:6-12

2009-03-02T09:02:00.000-08:00

My second cousin, Tara Skarin, has some incredibly well-written and thoughful ponderings in her recent blog titled "Thoughts on Sponsor Kids". I would encourage you all to read it. Hopefully, like I did, you will receive a small sense of how God is currently working through servants like Tara in Africa (e.g. Uganda); and yet the work that still needs to be done or the problems to be examined. Thank you, Tara.

The Thorn

2009-02-24T12:45:00.000-08:00

Go to The Thorn website for an idea of New Life Church's Easter production. Especially take note of the trailer, found under "media," which gave me unexpected chills the first time I saw it. I thought it was only a reproduction of the life of Jesus, but it looks to be so much more. Let me just say I cannot wait to witness what looks to be (and is rumored to be) an artistic masterpiece of the Gospel.

A Thought on Liturgy

2009-02-20T12:32:00.001-08:00

Glenn Packiam's recent blog entitled "How Liturgy Can Save Your Soul" is very compelling. I think of discussions with Catholic and Eastern Orthodox peers, as opposed to the majority of outspoken Protestant-rooted peers, and remember their own suggestions of why liturgy has and can serve to enhance our worship experience. I also think of Robert E. Webber's The New Worship Awakening: What's Old is New Again. There is a bit of controversy on this topic, of which I do not wish to delve into currently. But I think it is very necessary for us to be mindful of history, of the past, and examine what is truly in ours hearts (e.g. why we are repelled by the idea of liturgy in church) concerning these matters.

STAND: Renewed Vision, part 2 (The European Need)

2009-02-20T08:52:00.000-08:00

“To the LORD [we] cry aloud, and he answers [us] from his holy hill.” Psalm 3:4

EUROPE IS LESS THAN 1% EVANGELICAL CHRISTIAN.

e.g. Evangelical Population in . . .
United Kingdom 8.5%
Germany 2.9%
Spain 0.4%

About 1.8 million Europeans leave the Church each year.

Africa is experiencing 50 times greater growth than Europe.
Asia is experiencing 43 times greater growth than Europe.

e.g. There are about 80 million Believers in China alone, outnumbering the entire population of Germany.

Evangelicals Per Capita Comparison
AFRICA 14.8%
SOUTH AMERICA 10.6%
ASIA 3.6 %
EUROPE 0.25%

EUROPE IS CONSIDERED POST-CHRISTIAN

EUROPE IS THE TRUE "DARK CONTINENT"

“God is dead,” wrote Nietzsche. In Europe, where organized church and religion are considered by many to be irrelevant and outdated, it would unfortunately seem that the philosopher’s heavy words capture a developing truth. There is hope, however, as an increased interest and enthusiasm for spirituality has arisen among young people. The challenge for Believers, then, is to answer the emerging generation’s spiritual vacuum with the Gospel of Jesus Christ: the Truth—the Love—of the Kingdom of God.

It is an intellectual war: humbly and gracefully engaging a rising cynical secularism, materialism, and humanistic deconstructive criticism. And it is a spiritual war: prayerfully engaging a rising interest among young people in the occult, Satanism, New Age worldview, drugs, alcoholism, and gambling. Many youth are spiritually neglected, and some have no contact or knowledge of the Gospel.

Reaching the emerging generation is essential for the future of the Kingdom of God in Europe. It will require patient confidence and deliberate prayer. Over 55% of active Believers are currently over fifty years of age. There must be relevant and effective strategies made for reaching and influencing the next generation. New leaders, ones who can pervade every vocational domain of society, need to be inspired and encouraged for the road ahead—for a revival of the Kingdom. AMEN.

NOTE: Sources include a video and powerpoint by Greater Europe Mission (GEM), as well as Operation World.

STAND: Renewed Vision, part 1

2009-02-20T08:44:00.000-08:00

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. This is what the ancients were commended for.” Hebrews 11:1-2

“Finally, be strong in the LORD and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. . . . so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then . . .” Ephesians 6:10-11, 13-14a

“To you, O LORD, I call.” Joel 1:19

“In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.” Proverbs 16:9

“Comfort, comfort my people, says your God.” Isaiah 40:1

OC (One Challenge ) has provided a remarkable setting for a journey toward understanding God’s call in my life. After much discussion with OC leadership, the opportunity to return to Europe as a short-term missionary has been established. The general goal is to return for one to two years in order to lay a foundation for future long-term ministry. My prayer is to leave as late at September or as early as this summer, depending on how soon financial support is secured. Specifics about my role on the Area Team will be defined and further developed as I transition into life back in Europe.

The vision God has laid on my heart is to be available for service and encouragement to established and developing European ministries. I sense that this role will be comprised of two main facets: servant leadership and research.

SERVANT LEADERSHIP I pray that my strengths and passions, including STAND and research, can meet some needs of established ministries through the OC Europe Area Team.

RESEARCH I pray that through cultural insights and visions gained by applicable qualitative historical study, European ministries can better impact their target people groups and/or nations.

Please join with me in prayer as this vision of service in Europe continues to develop. Please also prayerfully consider whether God is calling you to journey with me financially along the road ahead. All the support you have shown through prayer, friendship, encouragement, and even financial gifts has been incredibly invaluable. Thank you very much.

This is merely the beginning. To God be all the glory, forever and ever. AMEN.

In Him, JOSHUA GRUBB
Cell: (719) 393-3445; Work: (719) 592-9292 x168
joshua_grubb@yahoo.com; joshuagrubb@oci.org

A Letter of Introduction

2009-02-20T08:38:00.000-08:00

Below is a copy of a letter of introduction from the Europe Area Director regarding my renewed vision above:

Dear Friends,

God has been shaping a vision in the heart of Joshua Grubb. Deeply rooted in the OC family, his parents having served in the OC mobilization center as well as in Germany, Joshua’s understanding of the Kingdom of God continues to draw him to cross-cultural service.

As Joshua has been involved with Steve Aldrich’s LIFEWORKX leadership training this last year, ideas for ministry to the emerging generation have been developing.

With reflection and prayerful discernment during this season, Joshua sees his passions, strengths, and past seasons of service all coming together in a call to help reach the lost and spiritually needy emerging generation in Europe.

Joshua expects that both his experience with LIFEWORKX and STAND (jdgrubb.blogspot.com) will be used to inspire young adults toward their God-given life purpose and direction. His desire is that his strengths and calling will be expressed through the OC Europe Area Team in service to multiple countries. Josh’s strengths include a passion for historical research, as it can offer relevant cultural understanding and support to current ministry networks.

There is much yet to define in his role in European ministry. I envision him spending 1-2 years in Europe serving the OC Area Team, thus setting a foundation for future long-term ministry. He realizes that specific goals cannot effectively be defined until he has fully re-immersed himself in the Europe setting. This will give him opportunity to better understand God’s work in Europe as a whole through service to the Area Team. Future goals will likely be developed through networking with local ministry leadership.

We are eager to see how God uses further discussion and experiences to shape Joshua’s heart and skills for reaching the emerging generation in Europe.

Please join us in prayer, and consider financial support for this first vital stage in Joshua’s response to his sense of the Lord’s call on his life!

Yours in Christ,

Murray Moerman
Europe Area Director
OC International
Worthing, United Kingdom

Reflection on Postmodernism

2009-02-17T15:33:00.000-08:00

Regarding potential future research topics connected to ministry in Europe, I am becoming more interested in one that has been suggested by Kyle Stiff, OC's Director of Personnel Development, that is the nature of Postmodern vs. Post Christian. This is really a question approaching a possible difference between the United States and Europe. There are many questions yet, as well as need for more specific direction; but overall my attention has been fully triggered regarding those two aforementioned categories of cultural understanding.

With that said, I was drawn to reading Eric Hurtgen's article "Stick a Fork in It: Postmodernism" as yet another simple starting point. I found his thoughts interesting, and am anxious to delve further into the dialogue as it also relates to the Kingdom.

Reflection on FACEBOOK

2009-02-17T09:22:00.001-08:00

For some interesting reflection, please read Brett McCracken's article "The Death of Facebook", from relevantmagazine.com, as well as the related comments. I believe there are some good ideas to think about. God bless.

My Recent Journey

2009-02-12T07:21:00.000-08:00

CALIFORNIA. These 10 days were a fantastic first chapter. In San Jose I enjoyed my cousin Anna’s soccer game, connecting with Pastor Tim Gallaher of Saratoga Federated Church, scrumptious food and lively family fellowship on Thanksgiving, and overall good moments with my grandparents and my uncle Darren. Santa Barbara, and Westmont College (after the Tea Fire), was a whirlwind of visiting many college friends still in the area, professors, coaches, and favored local sights. I am so thankful for the visit. I was truly blessed to reconnect with everyone.

Above: Mama preparing some cranberry sauce for Thanksgiving

Above: An iconic shot of Papa videotaping Anna’s soccer game.

Below: My friend Eric and I before a sunset run on the beach.

GERMANY. Being home after a 2 year absence was all I hoped it would be: rejuvenating and renewing with regards to the future. It was also invigorating to return to the beauty of the Black Forest region. I had actuallynever spent time home with my parents without my sister’s presence, which was different, but also another blessing. The first couple of weeks were spent helping my parents and friends finish the BFA school semester. I enjoyed time with my friend Andrew at a home basketball game, and became a willing “slave” to Alyssa and Rebecca as they sought to facilitate a student and faculty art show at the BFA Christmas Concert. Tab and Ryan arrived Christmas Eve, who I had not seen since their wedding inJuly 2007. The following two weeks were thoroughly family oriented as we celebrated Christ’s birth and the transition to the New Year. Happy 2009 everyone.

1^st Below: BFA ’03 classmates Andrew Tebbe and Alyssa Smith (RA and art teacher), and friend Rebecca Beeh (also art teacher)

2^nd Below: At a German art studio with friend and fellow STAND facilitator Ramona Sebald, as well as Alyssa and Rebecca

A definite highlight was my first solid one-on-one time with Ryan, in which we went snowboarding twice: once in Germany and once in Switzerland. Tab and Ryan left one week before my own departure, and during that time I had further God-driven conversation with my parents about vocation. I eventually recalled certain strengths and passions, suddenly uniting with my already developing STAND vision, to create a renewed sense of calling. Overall, my time away from Colorado was very fruitful. I heartily thank all who contributed to what was gained. God is definitely at work, and I am eager to share more and partner with you all in future service for the Kingdom.

In Him, JOSH

Below: Christmas day with my sister Tabitha, brother-in-law Ryan Fultz, as well as Mom and Dad

Failure is a Good Thing

2009-02-06T08:32:00.001-08:00

Thinking of my Kinesiology and Coaching Emphasis roots, and of the current economic situation, I found Aaron Stern's "Failure is a Good Thing" blog today very insightful and challenging. Not only did it cause me to reflect on the nature of vocational success and failure (e.g. for me, the future of STAND), but also of how I could be an encouraging yet also realistically involved father someday. Any thoughts?

The Power of Fiction

2009-02-06T07:42:00.000-08:00

Being a writer (I am about halfway through my first major manuscript), I found Glenn Packiam's blog "Why I Now Read Fiction" very insightful and encouraging--timely even. Great works of literature have heavily influenced my perspective on the world, as well as my writing itself.

I would encourage anyone, who has not already done so (and if so, read them again), to read the masterful works of J.R.R. Tolkien (The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings especially; Farmer Giles of Ham as well as his translation of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight are also fantastic), Fyodor Dostoevsky (The Idiot in particular, but The Brothers Karamazov is also really good, and so far--as I am currently reading it--Crime and Punishment), Chaim Potok (particularly My Name is Asher Lev and The Gift of Asher Lev, though Davita's Harp and The Chosen were really powerful), William Shakespeare (his plays and poems are genius; I would recommend "A Comedy of Errors," "Twelf Night," and "Much Ado About Nothing" for a relatively lighter start), and Leo Tolstoy (so far I have only read Anna Karenina, which was quite brilliant; I look forward to soon reading War and Peace and The Cossacks). I would also recommend a more recent piece of literature: Khaled Hosseini's The Kite Runner--honestly one of the best books I have read.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy Packiam's wise thoughts for the day, and also make some time to delve into some of the impactful works of fiction given to society over the last few centuries. I have quite a ways to go, and my reading list is ever growing. I welcome any recommendations. God bless.

PLEASE PRAY WITH ME

2009-01-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

While I will soon write an update of the last two months (i.e. my trip to California and Germany), I would greatly appreciate your prayers for me as I dialogue with OC's US and European leadership about the future of STAND (hopefully in Europe). There are some great possibilities, but a few questions that need answering before I can share more details. For now, I definitely appreciate your prayers. God bless.

"Leadership isn't Enough"

2008-12-23T12:45:00.000-08:00

Aaron Stern's blog "Leadership Isn't Enough" provides a very interesting and thoughtful reflection on leadership vs. character development, and how focusing too much on the hierarchical ascent of the US coporate ladder very often drives inviduals to miss the need for character developement. Overall, I continue to appreciate such insights through which me and my peers can continue to process through the fog of this world.

Winter Photography

2008-12-12T04:21:00.000-08:00

"Two roads diverged in a silver wood," der Schwarzwald, Germany 2008

I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday as it draws near.

I'm writing just to let you know that I've posted a number of new photos on RedBubble of Germany in winter. Hopefully such photography could provide some uniquely beautiful Christmas cards for the upcoming holiday.

Merry Christmas, and God bless you during this season of remembrance and hopefully blessed family time.(above photo: "Two roads diverged in a silver wood," der Schwarzwald, Germany 2008)

STAND Giving Opportuinty

2008-11-18T13:42:00.000-08:00

STAND exists to inspire young adults toward discovering their life purpose and direction, through globally-aware mentoring and networking. It is founded upon the Gospel of Jesus Christ and driven by the pursuit of Truth, in order that this generation may journey toward, enter, and influence the many domains of the world.

Greetings in the Name of our Lord, Jesus Christ,

In the last two months, I have continued to be challenged and stretched each day as I try diligently to pursue God’s calling in my life in student ministry and in art. Part-time work at the OC Mobilization Center continues fairly well, as do both my high school small group and STAND group. The STAND group’s last gathering, at least for the semester, will be this Thursday before I fly out on Sunday, November 23, for San Jose, CA. I look forward to spending Thanksgiving with my grandparents and extended family followed by a trip down to Santa Barbara to meet with some friends and potential STAND network contacts. Finally, from the Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) I anticipate returning home to be with my parents, and eventually sister and brother-in-law, in southern Germany. Aside from enjoying the holiday with them, I hope, similar to California, to meet with various recommended network contacts in the Black Forest Academy (BFA) and possibly Western Europe area. I also look forward to meeting up with my long-time friend and fellow STAND facilitator Ramona Sebald who recently launched her own small group.

Please be praying for the future of STAND as I have begun to approach a local church’s college/twenty-something ministry about “adopting” STAND into its own leadership. Not only do I yearn to be more involved with a church leadership community, but I also want to be able to learn and process with them about student ministry in general and as it can apply to STAND.

In conclusion, I would ask for your continued prayers regarding my financial situation (and thus that of STAND). Working part-time at OC has provided some solid ground, but only less than half of what I currently need to fulfill living costs. Raising support has had some surprising blessings, however, and God continues to provide faithfully. I never cease to sense the LORD’s invaluable blessings. I am currently at about 7% of my monthly goal, and I greatly appreciate those who have already given—financially and prayerfully.

On this note, I want to offer an idea of how even the seemingly smallest of gifts can have a significant impact on STAND. There are around 200 people who receive my STAND updates. If 100 of you gave $20 a month, or even if 50 of you gave $40, my monthly goals would be fully reached. Or if 150 of you gave $15, the goal would actually be well exceeded. Or as a final possibility: if everyone, about 200 people, gave $10 a month then again all would be met. It does not take much, and while I covet your prayers for my personal growth and that of STAND, there are practical needs I am trying to fulfill responsibly as well.

Please prayerfully consider the opportunity to graciously contribute to my short- and long-term vision for STAND. While God is the source and guide of the ministry, STAND is also fundamentally driven by you who partner with me in prayer and giving. I hope you all have a blessed time with family or friends giving thanks to He who provides for so much. I look forward to seeing some of you soon, and look forward to updating you on STAND’s progress in the future.

In Him,
JOSHUA GRUBB

Advent Conspiracy

2008-11-17T12:17:00.000-08:00

My friend Luke Oliver wrote a thought-provoking and challenging blog "The Goose is Getting Fat" recently. I would especially encourage you to watch the video of "Advent Conspiracy" promoted by a few uniting churches. It's encouraging to hear and see that the some people in the Church are responding with positive and practical alternatives to the more negative tendancies in the American culture. Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts, Luke.

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/

2008-11-12T14:29:00.000-08:00

If you enjoy dry humor and need a daily laugh, keep you eye on the Relevant Magazine's online slices. Below is one such example:

"A Ryanair jet originating in Frankfurt, Germany was forced to make an emergency landing in Rome after it was hit by birds which were sucked into its engines. The birds have finally turned on us, and they're not afraid to sacrifice their lives for the cause ..."

Are We in Love with a Nation?

2008-11-07T12:26:00.001-08:00

Please read Glenn Packiam's recent blog "Are We in Love with a Nation?" for further discussion on the nature of God's Kingdom. Much of what Packiam writes is what he also shared in the MILL sunday school's last morning discussion on the series "God and Politics," which I found both insightful and clarifying as to all the muddled discussion regarding the United States and the Gospel, particularly the Kingdom of Heaven as it relates to the Church.

A Broken Strategy . . .

2008-11-05T11:03:00.000-08:00

In his last blog, my friend Luke Oliver posted a link to Matthew Dunbar's blog article "Outlawing the Symptom: Our Broken Abortion Strategy". I think Dunbar offers good questions and thoughts, and should cause us all to pause (especially those far right "Christian Republicans").

And remember: “There are two great lies that I’ve heard: the day you eat of the fruit of that tree you will not surely die, and that Jesus Christ was a white middle-class republican" (Derek Webb, Mockingbird, “A King and a Kingdom”). In the general words of our next United States president, Barack Obama, it is time for some change.

The Vernacular of Mortality

2008-10-27T13:47:00.000-07:00

Below is a conclusion, or perhaps a simple revelation, that I came to at the end of a Spirit-filled worship time during "Pause", New Life Church's the MILL retreat, on the evening of October 18, when instrumental praise music was still pouring forth from the band, and many people in the congregation were still sitting quietly in prayerful meditation (including myself):

If such things could be described in simple common terms--in the vernacular of mortality . . . In writing I speak with God. In photography I see God. In music I find rest in God. And in the outdoors, in Nature, I meet God--I run with Him. It is here that all things unite, and where God is so very real.

Sleeping at Last

2008-10-22T14:22:00.000-07:00

Below is one of my choice songs by the band Sleeping at Last from Chicago. I am indebted to my friend Christopher for introducing them to me. After listening to their second ("Ghosts") and third ("Keep No Score") albums, their place as one of my top five favorite musicians was sealed.

Tonight, I look forward to hearing them play at a local Colorado Springs church. Hearing their music live will surely be incredible. Ryan O'Neal's lyrics are probably the most poetic I have ever heard (especially regarding his non-cliche Christian themes). Reading and listening to his artistry has led me to drop trying to write song lyrics, seeing that compared to his--and other artists I favor (e.g. Derek Webb, Coldplay, Nickel Creek, Iron & Wine, Jack Johnson, etc.)--mine are no good, and that I have little to say in such a genre that I do not already express in my fictional prose (I do, however, feel that I have a lot to offer through pure music, which exceeds any words I could personally write).

Anyway, below are the words to the song, though surely all their work is beautifully brilliant. . . .

"Careful Hands"

Put your coat on, this city trembles.
Keep your chin up, as you untangle God
From cold blood and bruises.

We are X-rays of something broken.
Cursive bloodlines write every forecast:
An orchestration
Of dissonance and innocent surrender.

When our color dies,
We will bury the ashes of time,
And we will earn new eyes.

Wrists get tired rewriting futures.
Our bodies beg us to be creatures of habit.
We are creatures of habit.

Only with careful hands
We'll turn their fangs into feathers and cures.
Only with careful hands
We'll divide the prisoner
From the pioneer.

Clever beauty,
Umbrellas folding.
In architecture, our lines will measure
A map to find us.
Blue ink will guide us home.

Cranes are creeping, lifting metal,
We will find new ways to settle,
Tipping scales from the killer to its prey.

I can feel the weight around us,
Climbing every rib inside us,
A sanctuary in a lion's mouth.
---
From the Album Keep No Score
All Lyrics Copyright 2006, Sleeping At Last

J.D. Grubb Photography

2008-10-09T15:43:00.001-07:00

With Christmas on the way, are you looking for a good gift? Do you love photography? Check out http://www.redbubble.com/people/jdgrubb for the opportunity to buy prints and thus support my photographic artistry (and indirectly STAND [Ministries]). If you know others who may be interested, please let them know. Cheers.

(Yellow Growth, CA 2007)

STAND: Climbing the Peak

2008-09-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

Friday night, September 19, starting at 22:35, the four members of the autumn 2008 STAND group took its first step onto the Barr Trail; thus embarking upon what would be a 27 mile round-trip hike of Pike’s Peak: Colorado’s thirtieth highest peak standing at 14,110 ft in the Rocky Mountain Front Range.

The group reached the Timberline Lodge, an “A-structure” nestled within the tree line, at approximately 4:00 Saturday morning, September 20. We unrolled our sleeping pads and bags for some much-needed rest (not to mention warmth—it was about 32°F outside). The soft glow of Colorado Spring’s city lights shone about 5000ft below and eight miles beyond as we each fell into a basic sleep.

A little over two hours later, at approximately 6:35, the sun broke from the eastern horizon to reveal a beautifully serene new day. We packed up, ate a bit of breakfast (a lot of peanut-butter and bagel sandwiches for me), and by 7:30 continued on the three miles of trail to the peak.

(Christopher, Alex, Dave, and myself)

The remainder of the ascent, though challenging with such little sleep, and marked by points such as a 1500 ft drop overlook as well as the “16 Golden Stairs,” was great. The group pressed on, and reached the peak sometime in the ninth hour of the morning. The first cog railway train had arrived, and its members were bustling about outside and amidst the peak’s store/food court. While feeling rather hard core and rugged in being one of the first groups that had hiked the mountain, not to mention singled out amongst the crowd, I must say that some of the wondrous glory of reaching such a climax is taken away when one observes the local soccer moms with their young families atop the mountain after having driven them up in their mini vans. Nonetheless, there was a great sense of accomplishment in the group reaching its goal.

At about 10:35, the group said farewell to the tourist-filled peak and began its long 13 mile descent. By now the sun was shinning bright and, though still rather cool above the tree line, the snow was beginning to melt. We found some renewal, perhaps, in the nature that we passed numerous hikers on their way up who looked at us and our heavy camping packs with great respect and awe. The descent challenged each member’s strength of will and limb, and by the time we reached the Barr Trail parking lot, we were ready for a hot shower and massage. I would like just note that I now believe that suffering the outer circle of Hell would be hiking endless switchbacks, with a pack weighing around thirty pounds or more, by oneself. Thankfully, however, we were not alone, and though they seemed at times to be marked by oblivion, the switchbacks did bring us to the end by about 15:30. Conquering the peak was more than just a physical feat to some, but a spiritual one as well.

Overall, the members of the STAND group have continued to grow together to establish the communal environment of openness and honesty desired. Last week we began the first piece of LIFEWORKX as I shared my own life story. Since then, we have been privileged to hear Dave’s powerful story followed by a time of prayer for the LORD to continue to work healing and power into his life. I really look forward to hearing the stories of both Christopher and Alex in the following two weeks. Please pray for God’s continual work in and through me and each member of the group.

As a side note, I was blessed this last Monday to facilitate, with my co-leader Sherry Middleton in our high school film studies group Two Thumbs Up, an eager discussion of the films “Music & Lyrics” and “Finding Neverland.” It was a pleasure to witness the students as they began to see and understand the deeper truths within such films. Overall, as is the group’s purpose, they are already growing into a perspective that values such a media form beyond just its entertainment value.

As to my travel itinerary, I will arrive in San Jose, CA on Sunday, November 23, and will stay in the Bay Area through Thanksgiving. I will then leave to visit contacts in Santa Barbara, CA until December 4 when I will depart from the LAX to Germany. I will be in Germany, possibly making a sojourn to Spain to facilitate STAND with a group of missionary kids, until January 14, when I will return to Colorado via a stop in California. As mentioned before, please let me know if you wish to meet with me while I am in any of those locations.

SOME PRAYER REQUESTS:
1. I recently learned that I will not have access for personal life needs (e.g. insurance) to my OC support account for STAND until December; therefore, this unexpected news has put some strain on my overall financial situation. Yet, the Father will provide. I am at peace.

2. Strength and discernment as I continue to pursue support discovery.

3. That the STAND core leadership team will continue to grow. (NOTE: Ramona, My partnering facilitator in Germany, is facing some difficulty in finding some young German girls interested in committing to her own small group.)

Thank you for all of your prayers and financial support. God is truly at work. To the King be all the glory and honor, forever and ever. AMEN.

(Barr Trail, Timberline, Pike's Peak, CO 2008)

"A King and a Kingdom"

2008-09-25T14:53:00.000-07:00

Please take some time to read the blog, "WHY JESUS IS NOT RUNNING FOR OFFICE" of New Life Church's Glenn Packiam. I believe he has some very poignant and true statements, especially in light of the coming Presidential election.

I agree with him that overall many American "Christians" (now a vague term to say the least, more to do with religion than actual living faith practices) need to redefine their perspective on what it means to live in the Kingdom of God. It is as I've alluded to in a previous blog ("Love is not Against the Law"), highlighting some of songwriter Derek Webb's lyrics:

"My first allegiance is not to a flag, a country or a man. My first allegiance is not to democracy or blood, but to a King and a Kingdom."

May the Holy Spirit fill each of you with wisdom and discernment as you consider who and what the United States needs for its Presidential team. God bless.

"How to Find a Husband"

2008-09-09T12:24:00.000-07:00

Follow http://aaronstern.typepad.com/aaron_sterns_blog/2008/09/what-to-look-fo.html to read a blog by the MILL pastor Aaron Stern, who in this article writes some really good thoughts on the subject of marriage. I look forward to what he will write to guys in his next blog (likely to be called "How to Find a Wife").

STAND [Ministries]: The Beginning

2008-09-05T09:07:00.000-07:00

Last night (Thursday, September 4) marked the beginning of the first STAND [Ministries] small group (connected, in part, to New Life Church's the MILL).

I immediately sensed God active presence working through our time together, and I ask for your continued prayers for the needs of the men in the group (i.e. Christopher, Alex, Dave, Jake, and myself). In general, I ask that you pray for real and honest community to be established in our fellowship, and that we all grow closer to God as each discovers more about how God has worked through his unique life, character and personality (i.e. design), strengths, and ultimately God-driven vocation.

Thank you for your support. I look forward to what God will do as next week I will use one of my favorite films, the Academy Award-winning film "Breaking Away" (1979), to continue processing through certain aspects of our lives, and then, weather permitting, hike Pikes Peak the next weekend (September 20-21) to build a further sense of brotherhood: warriors willing to get our feet, armor, and swords of Truth dirty with the dust and blood of our teacher Jesus Christ (we took a moment to view and process through Rob Bell's "Dust") as we engage in the spiritual war for this world.

Prayer will also be especially needed as we each reflect upon and delve into our life stories, each having an evening (end of September through October) to share with the group.

The King deserves all honors as STAND [Ministries] now truly sets forth in a very real and tangible way. I am very excited to have the aforementioned men in the group, and I eagerly anticipate how He will transform our lives. God bless.

STAND [Ministries]: PRELIMINIARY TRAVEL INTINERARY

2008-09-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking of the need, in part by the encouragement of others, to soon see a number of you in person. Such visits would not only be for friendship reasons, but also to have the opportunity to follow-up in a more dynamic environment on STAND (i.e. further questions, etc.). Meeting up with a number of you is not only really needed in my life right now, but also for the “life” of STAND.

So regarding the trip itself:

DESTINATION 1: CALIFORNIA. I first wish to take a flight over to San Jose (cheaper than driving from Colorado Springs) around the Thanksgiving holiday to visit some family and friends in the Bay Area (e.g. San Jose, San Francisco, Santa Cruz). There are a couple of you in Northern CA (e.g. Sacramento area) who I'd also like to see, so perhaps something could be worked out in terms of meeting up. Soon after that, then, I would like to travel down to the Santa Barbara and L.A. area to visit a number of college friends in particular (many of whom are still in SB) and perhaps even some professors from Westmont.

DESTINATION 2: GERMANY/EUROPE. Then, likely from L.A. (since it's cheaper as an International Airport city), I wish to travel to Germany where my parents live (and where my high school Black Forest Academy is located). There, throughout the Christmas and New Year holiday weeks, I want to visit family, which is much needed after basically a two year absence (my sister, Tabitha, and brother-in-law Ryan will be there shortly as well, as well as my uncle). There are a number of great networking and support contacts in the BFA area as well, another important reason for wanting to spend a significant amount of time (i.e. 4-6 weeks) in Europe. Another piece of this stay is the hope to be able to travel up to England, and possible a few other locations in Western Europe (e.g. Northern Germany and/or Spain’s Basque Region), to visit some good friends and BFA/OC contacts possibly interested in involvement with STAND.

So, the purpose in sharing this preliminary travel itinerary is that I want to offer the possibility of connecting in person with all of you. I hope to call as many people directly as possible, but it would help me greatly if those of you who are interested could let me know, and provide any needed contact information so I can follow up over the phone (preferably, though e-mail can work; NOTE: I do have a SKYPE account as well, if that is a desirable form of communication: “grubbusiness”—usually only available in the afternoon).

Overall, there is great potential for STAND to grow by taking this trip to California and Germany/Europe. Please pray with me about the following facets:

1. STAND’s first installment will begin this week (September 4), through my small group associated with New Life Church’s the MILL. Please pray for transformation in the lives of the four young members, and overall for my successful facilitation of the group toward the goal of STAND.

2. Finances: For this trip to be possible, really, I need for God to provide the required funds (i.e. airfare to CA, airfare to Germany/Europe, and driving gas mileage and/or train fare costs), not to mention other logistic details.
If you feel led to support me in this travel endeavor, please see below.[1]

3. My apartment. In leaving for 5-6 weeks, it would be very helpful to have someone I know, perhaps with a temporary housing need, to stay there and sort of sublet in order that while I am not there I can save money from rent (and since I will not drawing in any base income from working at the office).

SOME PRAISES:

1. God has provided for my needs this last year, and I am faithful that He will continue to do so this next year and the years to come.

2. Some of you have already responded generously with financial gifts or monthly support pledges, and for such faith and support I am very thankful.

3. I am really excited about the four guys that have committed to being part of STAND’s first installment mentioned above.

4. Housing. I can base most of my CA travel from my grandparents’ home in San Jose, and in Germany from my parents’ home (near the border, around Basel, Switzerland and Mulhouse, France).

5. Transportation. Gas prices are going down in the US, thus also hopefully airfare. My grandparents have offered for me to use one of their cars for transportation in CA if needed. The train system along the CA coast is reasonable, and especially good in Europe.

Praise our LORD for what He has already begun. I will keep you posted. God bless.

In Him, JOSH GRUBB
joshuagrubb@oci.org (719) 592-9292 x168

[1] If you have any questions, please contact me.
1. If you wish to mail a check, please use the following guidelines:
a. Mail checks (no cash please) to
OC International
P.O. Box 36900
Colorado Springs, CO 80936
b. Make payable to OC International
i. Please indicate that it is for Joshua Grubb, acct. #110277
ii. Fill out a “fill-in donation card” or “giving-form” (see OC’s website), and be sure to distinguish whether it is a monthly donation, or a one-time donation.

2. If you wish to make a direct online monthly contribution, please use the following guidelines:
a. Go to OC International’s website: www.onechallenge.org
b. Click on “Donate” link to the left.
NOTE: you can choose to use credit card as a payment choice; this, however, is not preferable as it will cost OC International an extra 3%, therefore ultimately making your donation slightly smaller for the recipient.
c. Click on OCEXPRESS/AUTOMATIC GIVING >>> link.
d. Click on OC Express Online Form >>> link.
e. Fill out the needed information, and then click the “Authorize” command at bottom of the page.
NOTE: if you wish to submit a one-time gift, you can also click on the Donate Online link, and fill out the needed information, and be sure to indicated in the appropriate field that it is “One-time.”